My childhood dogs name was snoopy so I wanted this to be my first clay creation. And can I coat it with clear nail polish for a glossy look? Or I have varnish too so should I use that?
Some context, my parents have been having fights for as long as I can remember, my brother says that they used to fight in other rooms when we were younger but started fighting in front of us around the time I turned 13. They always get us to pick sides when me and my brother just want to be left alone.
My brother was a rebellious teen and is now a rebellious adult, he stays out of the house for the most part and only comes to sleep. Whenever my father and brother have a fight, my father and mother also have a fight because my mother is the one who enables my brother.
I have been behaving obediently for most of my life but recently I can't fall asleep until 3-4 in the night and that causes me to wake up late most mornings. My father hates this too.
Now to the major issue, whenever my father/mother/brother have fights with each other, I always end up as the scapegoat since I am the youngest. Recently my parents have been fighting more and since my brother is rarely home, I am the only one who turns into the scapegoat for both sides.
Today they had a fight about how my brother was out too late and in the end my father commented that he should have beat us up when we were kids so we wouldn't turn out of rebellious. I asked him in what way I have been rebellious and he said literally that I sleep in too late, that's the only reason. I feel like I should turn into a proper rebellious teen and just start ignoring him, it's not like he's not scolding me already, how much more bad can it get.
I want to hate my parents but they idk, their moods switch up so fast, one moment we would happily be laughing and next they would start fighting. It feels like there would be no conflicts if they just divorced because their worst sides only come out around each other mostly.
I can't leave home since I have no income and I can't work so I'm the one stuck with my parents all day and have to cater to both of them.
I even wish that they got divorced even before I was born or just decided to stop at one kid, atleast then I would be stuck here