u/Naya_Janum

Baat ye hai kay mere parents mujhy bhtttt badikhlaq aur rude larki kehte hen.

I agreee that I have anger issues. But sara masla ye hai kay I have a very rough past. Bachpan say I was a people pleaser. I gave my 1000% to make everyone happy but all I got was pain, betrayal, and bullying.

My khandan wale never really talked to be since I lived abroad, my best cousin left me and I use to beg her to talk to me.

I was unlucky in love no matter kitna bhi Piyar dun, mujy sirf aur sirf dard milta tha.

I got batammiz when I got my first love heartbreak when I was 18. Uske bad I got anger issues. Now I’m in my 20’s.

My mother always compared me with good girls. Isko dekho ye kitni achi hai, wo kitni achi hai. Abhi bhi she compared me with her bhanji kay wo bht khushikhlaq hai and u are so rude.

Mujhpe aik waqt aisa aaya tha kay mujhy apne cousins ki doston ki bhttttt zaroorat thi but everyone abandoned me.

And now I hate them. I have no social life. Ppl don’t include me and i genuinely dunno why.

Sometimes I think to get therapy. Deen say bhi dhoor hoon.

I dunno what to do.

My mother finds everyone good except me.

Sari burai Mujhmein hai bas.

Isi waja say, ab mera acha banne ka dill nhi krta

I hate people
And. I love being alone

I’ve gained a lot of weight and I hate how I look

I look so fat and ugly but I got no motivation to loose weight.

I feel miserable….

I wanted to share some tea with you guys.

(background)

Basically hua ye kay meri bari khala and her family is very toxic. They have kinda abandoned our whole naniyal side ka khandan and just pay attention to our dadiyal.

My khala is also my bari tayi.

She has 3 daughters and they all hate me. Q?

Because I live in UAE and whenever I visit Pakistan I get a lot of attention and love from others and her daughters don’t. So unka and unki betiyoun ka jealousy factor hai.

Meri czn nay mujhy chordiya because the guy she liked also liked me and proposed me. So yeah , even tho I rejected him.

Kheir, jab mein is baar pakistan gayi to mera aik rishta aaya tha. The lady saw me in hall and asked my Khala about me. But khala nay mana krdiya kay my family is not looking for one (even tho we were) because she wanted that lady to focus on her daughters and not me. Again, she hated me as you know.

Fast forward to few weeks ago, when I was accused of blocking her daughters from every where. ( I just removed them from insta )

And that also because they were always rude to me for no reason!! Bas jealousy.

I got really frustrated wo bhi isiliey because she just thinks I’m the devil and her daughters are just innocent small creatures who just can’t be wrong at all. So out of frustration I sent MY MUM a voice note saying that “I didn’t block anyone and your sister is so jahil that she doesn’t know what’s the difference between block and remove”

Ab meri mama us waqt job pay thi and she didn’t hear the full voice note aur mama nay aage khala ko Bhejdiya kay dekhlo meri beti nay nhi block kiya. And BOOM khala exploded with anger 😂😂😂😂

My mum didn’t listen to full voice note and yeh ghalti say hogya sab.

So yeah, now her family hates me to the core and is playing victim 😂😭

Mujhy apni khala aur uski family say bhttttttttt nafrat hai. Shadedddddd nafrat.

I blocked her whole family hahahaha.

No one likes her. She even kicked my Nani out from her house and often abuse my dadi who is 80+
My khala is a b•tch!! And so her daughters.

Her eldest daughter is married and her husband is a creep whole SA me when I was 13. But she thinks that it was my fault and not her husband. She took his side and just got angry when I complained to her about her husband.

So you can see kesi fazool family hai khala ki

She and her family have done much more shit to our khandan and my family but post bht lambi hojaiegi…

So I’m planning to get a kitten (around 8 weeks old)

But I have never owned a pet before and it’s my very first time.

So can anyone guide me how to deal with a cat?

I really love catsssss😍

And i want to take best care of it !!

Is it better to get a male or female cat? I’m aware about getting them neutered or spayed.

Your guidance will truely help me take care of a small baby. So feel free to guide me as much as u want to.

Would love to learn 🥰

So I’m planning to get a kitten (around 8 weeks old)

But I have never owned a pet before and it’s my very first time.

So can anyone guide me how to deal with a cat?

I really love catsssss😍

And i want to take best care of it !!

Is it better to get a male or female cat? I’m aware about getting them neutered or spayed.

Your guidance will truely help me take care of a small baby. So feel free to guide me as much as u want to.

Would love to learn 🥰

I’m sitting in the car right now, watching the world pass by through my window, when a sudden thought crosses my mind.

“ kya bangayi hooon mein??”

And when I say it I mean it in a proud way.

Like I end friendships? I push toxic ppl away?

My past self wouldn’t believe it all.

I mean wasn’t I the ONE to beg people to stay?

Mein hi thi na wo jo kisi ko khone say darti thi??
Mein hi thi na jo tanhai ka souchke bhi darti thi??

But, now. I burn bridges if needed!

I push people away. I enjoy my loneliness or I say freedom?

Now, I keep boundaries. Speak for myself. But only I know the amount of pain it caused me to become a person I am today :)

Damn… I’m so proud. I can almost see the 2019–2025 version of myself smiling back at me, like I finally reached a milestone I once only dreamed about.

From ending 10 years of friendship to ending a situationship where I was absolutely head over heels for him.

He still begs me to come back. My ex best friend still reaches out to be back again.

The people who left me in the dark no longer have the right to come back now that I’ve found the light within myself.

Roz harti thi, aik din jeethne kay liey🥹

Agaya din

So yeah, I finally decided to walk away from him 2 months ago. And guess what?? He then confessed he loves me.
when he lost me. When I decided to leave. He CONFESSED!?!?!? But, how can he love me and treat me sooooooo trash????

Itna ganda treat kiya, ye kesi muhabbat thi??

But guess what I did? I REJECTED. HIM🤏🏻💅

Then he kept on begging me to give him a chance and how he was planning to propose me once I meet him but he was being rude because of many reasons he had issues in his life his ex was bothering him and also because I told her about him cheating on her bla bla blaaaaa.

I blocked him from everywhere. He went crazy and texted me from his friends phone. I blocked that too. And just said him clearly I don’t love u anymore I deserve better.

And yeah, that’s how my toxic talking stage ended.

It’s hard to reject the man you actually liked a lot. I mean I did like him. That’s why I tolerated his behaviour. Lekin, at that moment when he confessed the thing I desperately wanted to hear since so long . I felt like giving justice to my hurted soul. And I did exactly what I was supposed to do. 😌

I’m proud of myself

Bht summarise kiya hai, wrna bht Kuch tha.

Hello guys

My ex account was dard e disco.

A lot of things happened in life since i disappeared. Good and bad.

How are you all?