I cry everytime I read the quran (Not because its beautiful)
So I, (M14), used to be taught the quran by my mum. I never want to any special classes or anything; All I jad was my mum teaching me every month or two. I'm not religous at all and I only pray Jumaa. Recently my mum forced me into an online islamic class, and when they asked me to read I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I dont know, but it fwlt just like when my mum used to teach me (aggresively) and I would bawl trying to whimpee the words out between sobs. The tears were welling up and I was petrified. I froze I stopped reading and my teacher was confused. I feel like whenever I read the qura'an infront of an audience, I need to cry. (I spent 30 minutes crying in the bathroom after I finished the class)