u/Neat-Situation62

I cancelled my du seat due to many reasons and got du sol and I don't know why i feel so inferior to ones my friends going to regular college. I mean yeah i myself cancelled knc journalism seat as it was not financially and career wise not feasible for me . People saying i should actually do ssc chsl , ssc steno stuff but i filled my nda form which is next month and I haven't prepared for it as thought i will be great with journalism but I didn't knew my finances and my family stuff .

I feel so small and unrealistic and i m getting taunted i m at home and i chose open distance learning because of my laziness. They telling me low cost prize jobs to do but i feel was i implied to do it like i used to study like hell in school got percentages high not because i will loser in my life ...... And I can't risk making money i have to before like 22-23 need to .. i don't have a choice

I m like turning 18 in few months i want to learn stenography for being stenographer so which is best for ssc stenography where should i consider Like in ncr or online.

Today i withdraw my du journalism course from a tier two college which i had got

Growing up journalism was my dream but due to financial and future plans I can't really do it so i today cancelled my seat .

I m thinking of studing by du sol by doing political science hons .

People told me to do ssc chsl as i m in that age .

But i wanna know what should i really do . I know people say what u want but as u grow everything u want u can't do and being youngest i do have lot of expectations and responsibilities on my shoulders.