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I know, I know, don’t @ me but I have a free day without kids so I went thrifting (for my kids, obvi). Anyway, I’m checking out and they ask if I want to round up to support their mission, which I don’t for a myriad of reasons, so I say “not today.” Then she has the audacity to ask me if I’d round up a dime! I said “I’m sorry?” Because surely I didn’t hear her correctly. And she said, “Would you round up just ten cents?” Definitely not now lady!!! wtf!!! Prices are already out of control, no!!

Idk what to even title this. If I understood how discord worked, I'd use that - probably a more appropriate forum. Anywho, I just made an appt with Dr. Scott Leibowitz for August and am hoping I can start getting better treatment for narcolepsy. My psychiatrist has been managing it using adderral (we've tried several other stimulants) but that's failing now, so he is trying me on armodafinil. I've tried modafinil and that didn't work at all, same with Vyvanse and now Adderall. So I guess I'm hoping for someone to give me some hope?? Looking forward to seeing a doctor who is a specialist in sleep disorders/narcolepsy in particular.

Edit: I don’t think my post was clear. Had MSLT and confirmed N2 diagnosis in 2021. Psychiatrist has just been managing my stimulants. I’ve been seeing him since 2019.

I recently told my therapist and subsequently my husband (and now reddit apparently) that, after a decade+ struggle with Christianity, now that I have a 2 year old, I have to face my beliefs and figure out how I'm going to raise my kids when it comes to faith. In a nutshell, and what I said, is that I believe God exists, but I don't believe he is good. I'm stuck - if God is real, my kids need to know. But if he is bad, I don't want them to know.

For the first time today, my kiddo asked me if we were going to the car to go to church. Mind you, she's 2 so I'm not sure how she knew it was Sunday! We were going to Waffle House instead of church, btw, since it's Mother's Day and that's what momma wanted. My mom joined us after church, I told her about my kid saying that, and she was like, "God told her!" She also buys her lots of Christian-based books and teaches her that God made her/loves her, etc. Meanwhile, I don't know what I want my kid to know or not know, because I certainly don't want her to grow up believing her best deeds are as good as a filthy menstrual rag and that she is so bad that someone had to die for her evil deeds (my beautiful, innocent, perfect-to-me, daughter).

And in some ways parenthood has amplified my "God is real but isn't good" belief because I love my kid so much no matter what her behavior is like. I don't suddenly wish her to eternal damnation because she "sinned" and didn't, I don't know, put on her shoes like I asked or something.

Anyone else here or been here? Any resources for me?

I’m technically not 2u2 anymore bc oldest is 27 months and youngest is 8 months buuuut thought this would be the best sub for my question. We’ve had a sitter 2 days/wk since January while I work. We call her Mary Poppins behind her back bc she’s a dream. We had a new one start today (ours is graduating college and leaving us 😭). I knew Mary Poppins had set a high standard for anyone to follow so I’m trying to go with the flow. The only time she’d ever reached out needing help during the day was last week when toddler wouldn’t calm down after waking up upset from her nap.

New nanny today texted my husband (he wfh and I’m not available when I’m at work) for help getting the baby down for a nap. When he came upstairs, baby’s door was closed and nanny was walking around with him in there trying to get him to sleep. Toddler was in the playroom down the hall. We checked timestamps on our cameras (we don’t monitor them, they’re just there for safety reasons), and toddler was alone in the playroom for at least 7 minutes.

Obviously this needs to be addressed with the nanny but I’m concerned future things like this will happen if she thinks this is ok?? She’s cpr certified and has been babysitting for 6+ years, has references.

It just makes me upset and sad to think about her being alone all that time.

And as I’m typing this my husband informed me they went on a walk along the main road where you have to cross the road to keep walking. Our whole neighborhood has sidewalks so I’m not really sure why they went on the main road?

Idk, someone give me reassurance or advice or something please. Our only other option right now is to do 3 day a week daycare but 1. Toddler is hit or miss when it comes to leaving her in other places, and 2. We like the idea of the kids being at our house and not daycare. Help!

Just waking up after yet another post-Adderall nap. Going to ask my doc for a referral to talk to someone about getting on xyrem or xywav + staying on daytime stimulants when I’m done breastfeeding. I’m so tired of being so tired. I’m already on the highest dose of adderall my doc will let me take (IR 4x/day at 15mg each. Extended release might as well have been a sugar pill for me).