u/Neat_Communication27

I feel so anxious lately because I feel like such a bad person for liking AI and advancing more in my professional life with it.

I’m autistic so I’m naturally very justice driven and sensitive to unethical matters, but I’m unable to feel the injustice behind AI and it’s making me…afraid.

Here is an example,

Two months ago I was being harassed in my last job by my manager until I burned out. I used AI to understand which laws in Labor law where being broken, I then went on google and verified them. So I asked more questions about specific cases, about how to prove it exists. And AI transferred and information that says in my country, harassement doesn’t have to be proofed from the harassed but the person accused with it has to prove they didn’t
I ended up with a decent check that I’m using currently to open my coffee shop.

But then in real life I meet a lot of people who scream f** AI and I totally get it, I can see the damage it’s doing to women (deepfakes), to the planet.. but in my own mind I’m like : but that’s what everything we invented has ever done! The internet! The meat industry ! Mining! … but tbh I don’t dare share this in real life.. because I don’t even know if what I’m thinking about this is correct or not.. and im so used to being certain about things like being Vegan for example that this matter is itching inside my mind and I can’t get it sorted.

Could you please tell me what you honestly think? I need outside perspective on this because I tried to come to a conclusion alone about if I should fight it or embrace it.. and I just can’t..

Hello Everyone,

Haaah.. where do I start.

If I have to summerize the experience, it would be this : I feel like someone put me on a spaceship before I was born and sent me to earth, where I ended up to try to understand and adapt to this world without any guidance or understanding of people around me.

It is mostly the hostility of certain humans..
I was blessed a year ago with a group of people who understands me and are open to my ideas and way of thinking, I know many people like this are out there but sadly I didn’t get to meet them during my lifetime.

The hardest part is my work, I’m a sales assistant but I handle many other things that my manager throws at me, I do them because they stimulate my brain and get me out of the standard mind numbing repetitive tasks, because I thought it was a team where people don’t get limited, I do graphic design for our brochures sales, I automatize excel files using complex formulas, I prospect clients (ofcourse my manager is the one giving these directives). But when I started sharing Ideas my manager said your way of thinking is “twisted”, when she requested me to copy paste 5000 clients of another supplier and their adresses from a website I used python to scrape an open public website the government put for us to scrape, i delivered them while advising we respect the framework of competition in our country (I’m social responsibility representative in our company next to my job), she saw it and said my methods are sketchy and this exceeds my jobs description and that my analysis of the legal risk is drawn from AI.

I face a lot of other challenges in personal life as well, I babble about subjects for two hours like blackholes or Philosophy so most my friends just feel uncomfortable but I don’t know how to stop..

I forget my things everywhere all the time, I open the fridge to grab a snack and 5 hours later I realize I been cleaning the house because I saw the fridge was dirty and ended up cleaning it and everything around it and forgot to even have that snack

I get moments where my home is so dirty I can even lift a finger to do something about it and can’t even have my friends over

I get super angry, super sensitive, super analytical, very blunt, very clingy.. like I can’t just bring any emotion down!

And the feeling of always viewing myself like a fraud is horrible! Im looking at this text im writing and im asking myself If this is actually what im feeling or just a petty cry for validation.

It’s just so hard..

Thank for reading up to here and thank you for giving me your time and attention
With love 🤍

Hello,

I have always been someone who is against generative AI. Since 2022, I have been using AI solely for learning or info processing purposes. This allowed to do my job very well and learn skills very quickly like Excel VBA for example.

The issue is, I have also been seeing many of my favorite artist, actors and musicians getting stripped away from their identity by people who copy their voice and faces without consent, and the fact AI developers allowed it. My social media is flooded with AI videos and sometimes I don’t even know it!

Lately I’m working on a project of making affordable and high quality recyclable products for menstrual care. I was so excited using AI to fetch me articles about the physics behind fluids and simulating outcomes when I tweak the product Until I finally had my final product. I did the conception and tried it on myself and I worked!

I’m someone who cares deeply about everything around me or at least try to, with strong moral boundaries like being Vegan or Not using fossil fuel transportations

So I’m in this dilemma of seeing one thing that can both change the world and also destroy it

My mom says I cannot carry every moral cause on my back and I have to let other people or other humans carry it with me. But I look around and all I see is people running to buy fast fashion, eating half an animal a day and wasting resources. Who am i even supposed to count on?

Hello guys!

I got diagnosed with AuDHD a year ago and my doctor always talks about how I’m “Gifted”

He started saying that When he asked me about symptoms of autisme and we talked about the fact I make collections of everything. One of my collections is that I have an entire folder in my Laptop of science articles I write. He wanted to see some of them because he was genuinely curious

At first I was afraid because it’s a very personal side of me, it’s where I completely unmask and I know anyone reading it will get mad at me..

When I showed him one about Blackholes singularity he started talking about how I’m gifted

Issue is I have taken IQ tests before and I’m like between 98 and 104. So im genuinely confused

Does AuDHD affect IQ results? Could I be gifted but the challenges I have make it difficult to even work with it?

Niayesh Afshordi and Jahed Abedi provided 99% accurate data showing visible echos predicted by the echo equation by LQG!

Through 3 massive gravitational waves events detected all of them showed echos seperated by the exact milliseconds calculate by the Echo Equation.

We have more than enough proof that the center of a blackhole is a planck star and they still insist on it being earth noise.

Even reverse search of trying to find the same pattern in everyday noise didn’t give the results we got when looking at the soundtrack from detected gravitational waves.

Until when this multi-billion dollars institution that became the same entity it was fighting in the first place (churches) gonna keep throwing accurate data under the rug for their own world the stay stable

And now they trying to build LISA? As if stepping outside of earth will reduce the noise enough to see them clearly.

Phew, it felt good to let it out.

Niayesh Afshordi and Jahed Abedi provided 99% accurate data showing visible echos predicted by the echo equation by LQG!

Through 3 massive gravitational waves events detected all of them showed echos seperated by the exact milliseconds calculate by the Echo Equation.

We have more than enough proof that the center of a blackhole is a planck star and they still insist on it being earth noise.

Even reverse search of trying to find the same pattern in everyday noise didn’t give the results we got when looking at the soundtrack from detected gravitational waves.

Until when this multi-billion dollars institution that became the same entity it was fighting in the first place (churches) gonna keep throwing accurate data under the rug for their own world the stay stable

And now they trying to build LISA? As if stepping outside of earth will reduce the noise enough to see them clearly.

Phew, it felt good to let it out.