I cheated on my boyfriend and want him back 😩
I’m 19 and my now ex bf is 18..We have been together all through high school and never had any problems everyone knew we dated we did everything togethe,he was pretty much my only friend because I have always been shy and awkward he was also my only body before this occurred…
So one day we were walking to class and a guy my bf had problems with made a comment about how my butt looked in my jeans we tried to keep walking but he kept calling me over , my boyfriend said no so I kept walking but he kept asking so I just went to see what he wanted , he asked for my number and I told him no and left (btw my boyfriend was pissed that I went to see what he wanted)
Later that night somehow he found my instagram😭 he texted me asking me if I wanted to hangout and smoke I kept saying no but he eventually convinced me idk what the hell I was thinking
So he picked me up brought me to his house and we were smoking and drinking just talking about life and about 7 beers later we end up making out I felt so bad but at the same time I was so drunk and ignored my feelings one thing let to another and now I’m getting fingered by him (I could not stand it somehow it was better than my boyfriends dick) he asked me for head so that’s what I did I’m not very experienced but somehow he said I was one of the best
Ik he liked to bully my boyfriend but for some reason that thought turned me on even more next thing I know im on my knees giving him puppy eyes begging him to fuck me
So he does and it was the best sex ever…. I thought my bf was good but he was out of this world I guess because he was more than twice his size and I’m a small girl
Out of no where my boyfriend calls and this is where it gets worse he tells me to answer and I do😭
I try to hold my whines as much as possible but can’t he ask me what’s going on and I tell him my stomach is hurting and that’s when the guy FaceTimes him , shoves my head into a pillow and pounds me like no tomorrow I completely lose control and cum the guy made me say humiliating things to him I was so into it I did (I let him know I was cumming and that I was being fucked by a real man) my boyfriend has never made me finish that was my first orgasm , I felt so bad I was whining and moaning “im sorry it just feels to fucken good”
My bf hangs up blows up my phone with name calling text and the guy records himself cumming on my face and sends him to video my boyfriend was pissed people told me he cried and destroyed his house
I don’t know what to do I want by bf back so bad he was my only freind and cared about me so much he was perfect I let one stupid mistake ruin everything I hope one day he will forgive me ……..let me know if yall have experienced anything similar or if I’m the only one with a wild experience like this