I'm 54 and feel like a failure. I'm basically starting over. I moved back in with my parents after getting laid off and they remind me every day to get ready to move out. Prior to all of this I felt relatively successful with work and my kids. Now every day I'm pretty down on myself. Does anyone else relate?
I’m 54 years old and I’m a failure. Since my kids left the nest I have been going down a spiral of self loathing and pity. I left a marriage, where I had stuck it out for the kids. I left a job, that was going nowhere but was stable. Now, I’m living with my parent, because I was laid off from the job I left the stable job for. I can’t find any happiness in life, there doesn’t seem to be anyone out there for me. I found a new job but I’m not sure if it’s going to fill that vacancy in my life that I’m looking for. Lastly, I don’t see any genuine happiness ever coming my way.
Today, my parents basically said it’s time for me to move on. I need to get my crap together and move out. I knew that’s what I needed to do anyway. But I’m nervous because of the cost of life out there, I’m nervous I’ll get fired again with no savings. I’m nervous to be on my own and alone. I left everything that I physically own, except for my car, behind when I moved here. I still haven’t decided that here is where I want to be!
I have no confidant, no friends here and I really didn’t have much back there either.
Sometimes I think I just need a time machine.
Sometimes I think, just suck it up and maybe tomorrow will be better.