u/NerdBug1104

Hello. My (21f) partner (22m) is addicted to porn. We’ve been together for almost 3 years and I’m 12 weeks pregnant with our first child. I’m going to start from the beginning to give some context. About 1 year ago I was setting up car insurance and I needed my partners phone so I could get the app installed. He was already asleep so I grabbed it (no big deal he never cares). Well… I found quite a bit of interesting stuff. Any app you can think of there was something on it. All the links were clicked, all the pages viewed, all the women were right there. I was absolutely shocked. I even found NSFW AI chat bots downloaded. I felt absolutely awful. I woke him up and had him explain himself. He was just giving me excuses. “I don’t know why I do it” “I don’t get anything from it” so on and so forth. I told him he had to get into therapy or I was gone. So he went for a few weeks and then stopped. By then the behavior hadn’t returned so I was okay. We’ll fast forward a few months and we get engaged. A few months after that we find out we’re having a baby. Life was going great! That was until this week when I found out he just learned to cover his tracks and he got sloppy. I’m just at a complete loss. I’m having his baby and he’s still doing this. At this point I don’t know what to do. He said he’s really going to go to therapy this time but I don’t know if that’s enough. He was watching it the night he proposed! He watched it the day we found out we were having a baby! How does someone come back from that? How can you happily look back on those memories now?! I genuinely feel like my life for the last 3 years is nothing. Nothing was genuine, nothing was special, and nothing was how it seemed to be. How does a relationship move on from this? Or am I going to be a single mom? I just need some advice/help