Hi guys! Basically last year to this April I had a really bad makeup addiction (mostly lip gloss) and recently I've been keeping it under control. Since April until now I've managed to only buy two things from Sephora and I also deleted the sephora app from my phone. However, I'm seeing new sephora sets and it's sooo tempting to purchase it. I've been doing so good at not buying and want to keep it that way. Please give me advice 😭😭
I'm a newly 23 year old girl. I have been single for the last 6 years, unfortunately that doesn't mean I've been exempt from heartbreak. Each time someone hears that, I'm met with shock or people telling me that others are missing out, which somehow makes me feel worse. Why is it that others say I have such good characteristics, like being pretty, nice or smart, but the way I'm treated by others romantically never reflects that. The last and worst heartbreak was a guy from 2024, and I feel pathetic and humiliated that he still has ways into my life even after blocking him everywhere. The worst part was that I let him, and just like the two other times he was in my life, he hurt me.
He was the first guy I ever found extremely attractive appearance wise, which I didn't realize how much would affect me before. Ever since him, I can't find anyone else attractive, it's devastating because I'm not even sure how to fix this. He also made an image of himself where he was such a family guy who would make an amazing father figure, and loves and treats his parents amazingly. Overall, he made himself out to be a lot better than he actually was, and the sad thing is... I know that it's fake, but something in my psyche is still chasing that and the feeling of when we first met.
I deserve so much better... I know that. For the people I love, I always promise to protect and love their heart fiercely so no one ever feels the way I have. I put my best foot forward to let the people in my life know that they are so highly cherished and loved, because that's just my nature. Whenever my friends or family are sad, I either cook for them, take them out or make sure I'm there to hear their struggles, because why would I ever let someone experience that pain by themselves. It's my biggest strength, but also my Achilles heel. I feel like a caged animal because I do these things for my romantic connections as well, only for it to never get reciprocated. I'm always left heartbroken.
Maybe it's just not my time, but I'm in so much pain. I know some of you may see me as pathetic, I don't blame you. I just want this to be over. Thank you to everyone who read my rambling, I think I just needed to let everything out.