u/Nexus_666

I've always been an alcoholic, but it was around 20 years ago, after a horrible breakup that sent it spiraling. I was madly in love with this girl who betrayed me in every way she could. She was my first true love and I guess I never got over it. I even considered the idea that I got some kind of low key PTSD from it. The thing is, I don't think about her when I'm sober, but when I'm going through withdrawals she enters my mind all the time. Tonight is one of those nights. I think being in a withdrawal sort of makes me relive it in my head. It's kind of embarassing because WTF is that? I literally haven't spoken to her in ages, so why? It's kind of disturbing, actually, and it's one of the biggest reasons I should quit drinking for good.