In dire need of guidance
A true cry for help tbh. I know y’all cant help much but listen please
I started my journey of competitive exams in 11th. Allen JEE. Worst fucking start. Depression and shit now listen I continued this shit wrecked my body took an attendance exemption wasnt able to score well in the school exams nor in Allen back in 12th start I dropped Allen for IPMAT. Took a lot of convincing then I just dont know what happened till Sumer vacations? Oh yeah now I remember I was enrolled in class 12th Allen advance batch so yeah in summer vacations dropped jee switched to ipmat did ACEIPM lectures and everything and their shitty modules. I did everything of theirs and when I joined an offline coaching called CH Edgemakers their material is too good ngl. But then when I opened it all my confidence was shattered and like I joined the batch late too. Like a month or 2 before HY. I tried to balancee both board studies and everything but it didnt work. Failed in HY of PCM and I didnt even give one mock of CH Edgemakers as to prepare myself and to complete that backlog of QA. DILR is like kinda good of mine and VA is good too. The backlog which I still cant cover till today and is just growing. I am drowning. I am actually drowning. Switchback to today im so scared out of my mind. I had 95 in boards now I have dropped to such as shitstain of marks. I dont know man. Im so overwhelmed. PCM is a very different beast and IPMAT is another beast. And what am I? A man with a lot of potential but with very unfavourable conditions. Please. I am seeking help. I need help and encouragement and reality check.
I know many of you will berate me say what have I written and everything but please. I need help. Bhavesh Bhaiya or any other seniors. Please I need help guide me out of my misery