Vent art? (Cw: Dissociation/depersonalization themes)
This might be a bit edgy sorry lol- this moment just struck me as particularly ironic. This was edited from an actual picture of my laptop of a quiz in one of my online classes. Getting asked what role schools play in socialization while sitting at home not in an actual school. The paragraph on the side is from what I learning about! It was just interesting to me learning about how socialization impacts a person’s sense of self, because I have struggled with my identity and feeling a distinct lack of a sense of self for the longest time and I’m thinking now that’s definitely related to being homeschooled-
Full transparency I am doing better now and the online schooling is a catching up as an adult thing. It’s just weird because yesterday I ran across a recording I made a few years back rambling about how I didn’t feel like a real person or connected to myself and I had no idea why. Looking back now I know that was definitely depersonalization. And now today I’m learning some of the science behind identity formation (because i actually HAVE access to education now) and I’m realizing how much it has to do with things I distinctly lacked growing up. Funny how that works out huh
OH the words at the top are from a poem I wrote a few years ago too!