u/No-Cold310

A few days ago, I went on a date and we were drunk. He came back to my place. I thought he was a gentleman because he walked me to my front door, but then we realized there were no trains running to get him home. So, I told him he could stay the night and leave in the morning (So he could save money). But as soon as we got inside, he came onto me. I was very drunk, but I remember a few things. I know I tried to push him away and I know I said no, but he didn't stop, so I just waited for him to finish. While I was asleep, he had sex with me again. He didn't know I woke up during it, but I didn't know what to do, so I pretended to keep sleeping. And when the alarm went off in the morning, he had sex with me again. This time I didn't say or do anything because I thought it wouldn't make a difference. He asked me if I remembered anything, and I lied and said no because I didn't know what to say. But I wanted to know if he knew what he was doing... He texted me saying that he had raped me and had sex with me while I was asleep. However, he claimed it was just roleplay and that we had agreed to it. I don't remember that at all. I don't know why, but I was worried about saying anything, so I pretended everything was fine.

I am feeling weird and empty

We met online. He has a cool vibe and really wants to see me.

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I don't want him driving to my city, so I’m driving four hours to his. He should really not come to my city.

But he wants me to stay over at his place and says I can stay as long as I like (we’re both on vacation). Hotels are expensive, so I’m thinking about it. Is it a good idea? Would it be weird to stay over at his place? I am not scared of him. I can fight him.

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If I drive back home the same day, I’d be on the road for a total of eight hours... That is really long and I want to rest.

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Is it weird? Part of me wants to do it, but I don’t want to seem like an easy catch. I’m definitely going to play hard to get.

I am a nurse at a nursing home.

Today one of the residents became very agitated and locked herself in her room. I wanted to talk to her and offer her support. But when I sat down beside her on the bed, she pulled out a long pair of scissors and tried to stab me. She even nearly hit my neck, but I managed to dodge out of the way. She then screamed, "If I can't kill you, I'll kill myself!" She proceeded to stab herself in the arms and neck with the scissors.

There was blood everywhere. I was screaming and trying to restrain her. I was alone with her in her room. My colleagues arrived and intervened to save both me and the resident. Paramedics and the police also arrived on the scene.

I collapsed to the floor. I couldn't catch my breath and was in a state of shock. I was crying, screaming and sweating. I was granted three days off to attend to my mental health, but I still feel completely traumatized and cannot sleep. I don't know what to do. Everyone was shocked, as the resident does not suffer from dementia and had shown no prior signs of behavioral issues.

These scenes play out over and over in my mind. I keep asking myself why this happened and what I might have done wrong.

I was so scared. She might even return to our nursing home. I hope not but the thoughts fill me with panic.