u/No-Emotion-7675

I just don't know anymore. Im questioning it all now. How u looked at me and watch me from afar. How u remembered the most random things I would say to you. All the questions u asked. It had to be real. You would pay so close attention to me over the last few years. I think you know other people was starting to notice and so was I. You knew things were different when I showed up you knew right there on the spot that the universe had brought us together. I just knew that u were the most handsome man I had ever laid eyes on and u made me nervous which was very unlike me to be. You can't fake the love I saw in your eyes. My heart just aches now without you. This love is taking a toll on me. I wish I could tell you all this but since I can't I'll just leave it here. I miss you though and my days are all Grey.

I know you are my person. I remembered when I 1st knew ,its when u looked at me and you grabbed ur chest. I thought u might have been having chest pains. I felt what it was. I often wonder does every1 else feel it 2? Unspoken and undeniable. If I were able to I would text u and tell you im so crazy about you. The hardest thing I've ever done was to contain it all. I run away when its get to overwhelming then run back because u are my home. It's time to tell you now. Ek het jou lief

If u were here we could play in this pouring rain. It would wash away every hurtful thing that we did to each other & we could live in this moment together.

I have so much to say to you & I feel like you have some things to say to me too. I wouldn't say them over Facebook so being blocked by u on there is no longer a concern of mine. I gave you 2 ways 2 contact me. So the ball is in your court. My hands are tied. If you love me then tell me. I can feel you here. I know you see this. Idk what the next steps are but I know I want them to be towards you. 😏

I'm a runner. The day I left I asked God if u really were my person then to show me a clear sign soon. And oh how he did. It was a heart on ur shirt when I saw u. All I could say was look there's a heart on ur shirt from sweat. That's weird. I was so scared after that moment. Of u of me and all I could think was why did I ask God to show me if I wasn't ready to know. I'm so confused. I can't stop loving you even though I know it's wrong for me. That if I was to tell u all of this in real life it would be real shitty of me. I would be a bad person. I don't want to hurt any1. I don't want to be a bad person. Idk what to do. I've only told 1 person about the love I have for u and how awful of a person I feel like I am for loving u this way. I'm all alone. I try to move on and I agree to dates and I get ready then cancel on them because I feel like I'm yours and no 1 else's. I cry all the time now cause I feel empty 😞