u/No-End4905

Coming up on day 4. It’s a mission to get up to pee or move in general. My mind is ready for the gym but I can’t get up without getting lightheaded. How long does this last?

I quit Kratom powder nearly 2 years ago. For the past 2 months I've been taking high doses (500-600mg) 7oh daily. I am feeling scared, hopeless, and ashamed. I'm to the point where I don't get high anymore, just dosing to feel normal. I'm on edge with work and I can't take time off. I have high stress meetings every week with my boss who already doesn't believe in my work and I can feel a termination coming. Half of me wants to quit work so I can just go cold turkey. I don't know what to do. I am scared to tell my wife since she was so proud I quit kratom prior. I'm so scared. This is so hard and I'm expecting this to be so much harder than quitting kratom powder. I have all the meds (not subs) prescribed and vitamin C ready for cold turkey. I keep reading threads saying people needed rehab. Please give me some reassurance that I can do this at home

Tomorrow is 1 month since I relapsed and I’m trying to catch myself. I’ve been doing 30GPD with some 7-OH sprinkled in. I’m so disappointed with myself that I have to go through withdrawals again. I got my meds ready (gaba, clonidine, tinazadine, Vita C, and black seed oil) to jump.

Worst hurdle is I can’t take PTO and I’m already not doing so good at work. I need to have at least 4 days where I can just go through it. My goal the next week is to stick to just powder and cut the extracts. Then find a Friday-Tuesday in the next couple weeks where I just deal with the pain.

I hate this so much