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If you could add one feature to Reddit, what would it be?? (Like only the essential ones, not to make it same like Insta or something)

I would add voice notes, what’s yours?

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Just wanted to know how’s their teaching and service.
I’m planning to join there, please reply who’s been there before or not.

Just wanted to know how’s their teaching and service.
I’m planning to join there, please reply who’s been there before or now.

My first relationship(was intercaste)got affected due to my porn addiction, like I did MISTAKES like fantasising/imagining other girls in bad way(due to porn consumption tbh, im not defensing myself) and I also used to check whether other girls are giving eye contact to me in college or not when I was in relation(idk why tf I did that also). Ik all this were very wrong and yes, my gf came to know abt this when she went to a retreat centre(she was Christian). I was answerless when she asked me if it’s true or not… but I told it’s true by accepting my mistake. She got heartbroken, She still forgave me after that issue coz it was due to my porn addiction, I was porn addict since childhood itself like from 6-7th std, and it got worse during covid time. They(retreat centre) even told I’m not true/loyal, this made me doubt myself after that a lot, like a lot. I was scared after that.

Our relationship started after covid(after +2).
I didn’t had any side chicks or anything like that when I was in relation, only mistake I did was this two, I swear. Soon we broke up after this issue when her sister came to know abt our relationship, deep down we both knew there’s no future together(since it was intercaste and both of our parents are very orthodox). After breakup I’m regretting by rewinding my mistakes, it’s been almost 3yrs now, I haven’t moved on yet. But she told she’ve moved on, idk if she’s lying or not(like what if she told a lie by thinking that I’ll move on if she move on).

After two years of breakup, my friends started making joke with a 1st yr jnr in my clg, I liked her actually and I thought to move on(first I was afraid due to my past and even tried to avoid it, but later I thought what if it’s meant for me and all) then we started talking, she was also interested in me, like after 2 months I started doubting myself like am I really true to this new girl or not? am I fake?(started rewinding past as the retreat centre said im fake). I then stopped all with this new girl due to fear and confessed everything abt this to her. She also felt very bad coz (she was also facing a breakup of 6yrs relationship, still she even agreed to talk to me and to try moving on)

Now thing is that I don’t have any wish to be in a relation with someone new and I’m still afraid by thinking what if I’m really fake as they said; Idk why, lost all interest in relationships tbh, it’s zero.

Watching love films reminds me of my x.
I wish to talk to my x, but I’m scared, don’t want to disturb her again.

Everyone says accept it…accept it and move on
But how??? I can’t do it till now, for few days I feel positive like I’ll move on, everything will be alright, next day again down and it repeats.
I Always have a heaviness in my chest when I think about relationship now.

It’s not affecting my daily life, but when I think abt relationship ahead, it makes me heavy, doubtful.