u/No-Gold632

TW: suicide

I don't trust anyone. I am not happy. I try to be happy, but I'm not. It's like life just keeps slamming me to the ground and I'm tired of getting back up ...

Nothing has ever helped. I have major depression disorder, and I've always felt like I don't belong. Like I'm on the outside looking in, everywhere I go.

I've never felt like I belong.

I want to die, but I won't even try to attempt anything. I already have multiple failed attempts. I can't buy a gun.

I don't know how much more I can take.

I've sat here and questioned if you really are my friend these past few weeks.

Did I do something that upset you? If I did, why haven't you communicated that to me.

I don't know if I can say you are upset or not. I hope you aren't and perhaps I'm just overthinking things , I shall leave you alone unless you reach out first.

Then I shall have my answer. I miss you .