u/No-Opportunitiy

For context, I have known for almost​ 8 years now that I am attracted to women and men (bisexual). It hasn't ever been an issue in a majority of my very few, and very short relationships, until now (as this is the longest relationship i've had so far, half a year). While I love my boyfriend, there are times I wished he was a girl, or that we could have a girl in the relationship with us. I'm not sure how to even bring this up, as we won't be seeing eachother practically at all for 3 months (the whole summer) as he is always working, and I'm busy with hockey.

I suspect this might all stem from some hockey friends I have recently made, one who is a lesbian, one is a bisexual male, and one who is open minded. I don't believe I am personally attracted to them (expect for maybe the last one), and I'm very open with telling them ​a lot of details about my personal life.

With that in mind, I have no plans to break up with my boyfriend. Sure, many highschoolers plan to marry their boyfriends, and then break up after highschool, or even before they graduate, but I geuinely see myself possibly having a family with him. I love his face, his family, and a majority of his personality. Even the parts I don't enjoy at times, he has made our relationship to the point I can freely, safely, and comfortably bring up any issues or things I'm concerned or even just want to mention. This is one of the main things I love about him, as well as just how overall caring he is, and how trustworthy I see him.

The only issue is, that I know that I will often appreciate other people's looks (with no intention of ever cheating, as I never even attempt contact with them, and never plan on it), and I have noticed I've been appreciating a lot of women's looks.

Bringing up the topic of my new hockey friends (apologies for being all over the place, I'm just really curious what people have to say on this), I have been told that my appearance and even the way I carry myself is very masc lesbian. Which, I honestly enjoy.

Though, there's almost no women who I have in mind when it comes to any type of lover, except for, as the title says, if my boyfriend was a woman. ​But at the same time, I want to ask my boyfriend how he feels about being more open (not an open relationship, but possibly a polyamorous relationship). Even with that, I feel like this​ is just very selfish of me, and that I might just be trying to be attracted to women who I want to be, rather who I want to be with. I'm not entirely sure on any of it. As I write this, I'm still very unsure of my stance on anything, except for the fact that I plan to continue my relationship with my boyfriend, as I couldn't even imagine losing him.

TDLR; Raging Bisexual with a preference for women, got a really amazing (sometimes) boyfriend, and can't decide if I want something polyamorous, or if I just need to wait and see if this feeling passes.

ALSO, this is a repost from another area of reddit (i forgot the name of the things 💔)

For context, I have known for almost​ 8 years now that I am attracted to women and men (bisexual). It hasn't ever been an issue in a majority of my very few, and very short relationships, until now (as this is the longest relationship i've had so far, half a year). While I love my boyfriend, there are times I wished he was a girl, or that we could have a girl in the relationship with us. I'm not sure how to even bring this up, as we won't be seeing eachother practically at all for 3 months (the whole summer) as he is always working, and I'm busy with hockey.

I suspect this might all stem from some hockey friends I have recently made, one who is a lesbian, one is a bisexual male, and one who is open minded. I don't believe I am personally attracted to them (expect for maybe the last one), and I'm very open with telling them ​a lot of details about my personal life.

With that in mind, I have no plans to break up with my boyfriend. Sure, many highschoolers plan to marry their boyfriends, and then break up after highschool, or even before they graduate, but I geuinely see myself possibly having a family with him. I love his face, his family, and a majority of his personality. Even the parts I don't enjoy at times, he has made our relationship to the point I can freely, safely, and comfortably bring up any issues or things I'm concerned or even just want to mention. This is one of the main things I love about him, as well as just how overall caring he is, and how trustworthy I see him.

The only issue is, that I know that I will often appreciate other people's looks (with no intention of ever cheating, as I never even attempt contact with them, and never plan on it), and I have noticed I've been appreciating a lot of women's looks.

Bringing up the topic of my new hockey friends (apologies for being all over the place, I'm just really curious what people have to say on this), I have been told that my appearance and even the way I carry myself is very masc lesbian. Which, I honestly enjoy.

Though, there's almost no women who I have in mind when it comes to any type of lover, except for, as the title says, if my boyfriend was a woman. ​But at the same time, I want to ask my boyfriend how he feels about being more open (not an open relationship, but possibly a polyamorous relationship). Even with that, I feel like this​ is just very selfish of me, and that I might just be trying to be attracted to women who I want to be, rather who I want to be with. I'm not entirely sure on any of it. As I write this, I'm still very unsure of my stance on anything, except for the fact that I plan to continue my relationship with my boyfriend, as I couldn't even imagine losing him.

TDLR; Raging Bisexual with a preference for women, got a really amazing (sometimes) boyfriend, and can't decide if I want something polyamorous, or if I just need to wait and see if this feeling passes.