Body dysmorphia or am I still fat?
I never really post on here but I really need some advice. For context, about two years ago now I (19M) was about 270 pounds, and DEFINITELY not muscle. Since then, I’ve lost 100 pounds and then bulked up to 190, and now I’m sitting about 185. I’ve done body scans that say I’m currently about 11% bodyfat, and I still feel absolutely disgusting. I’m at the point now where if I eat something that’s above my caloric limit or just junk food, I spend the next 20 minutes throwing it up because I genuinely feel like I have to. It’s really messing with my self esteem and just makes me feel awful all around. I’m a Christian, and I feel like God might be upset with me for struggling with this if that makes sense. So I guess I’m asking if I still have weight to lose or if im straight up just imagining things? I have a bunch of loose skin and I bloat super easy so I feel like I’ll never be able to look “good enough” if that makes sense. Any advice?