u/NoNewt5654

When I (15F) was 8 there was a time when I suddenly became obsessed with my brothers posture and movements. I developed an aversion for his habit of licking his fingers and slouching an would force him sit in a specific way, when he didn’t I would throw an extreme fit (screaming throwing things crying, feeling out of control) Then eventually my parents brought me to a therapist/ councillor whom I refused to talk to for the whole sesssion (I knew I needed help but for some reason could not communicate my feelings), after a few sessions of talking with my parents, she decided that I was jealous of my brother for the attention he gets. My parents believed it until my condition got worse (even after they diverted all their attention to me) and I also knew that it wasn’t true at all because I’ve always hated attention and had an amazing relationship with my brother for 7 years prior to that. I’ve considered OCD but it still doesn’t explain why I only targeted my brother and not anyone else. This lasted for 3 years until it eventually went away, but it irreversivably ruined our relationship. Right now I still get annoyed by his posture sometimes but the anger I felt has became way less intense compared to at that time(I still get fixated on other things though). CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE EXPLAIN THE PSYCHOLOGICAL REASON BEHIND IT?? Thankyou:)

When I (15F) was 8 there was a time when I suddenly became obsessed with my brothers posture and movements. I developed an aversion for his habit of licking his fingers and slouching an would force him sit in a specific way, when he didn’t I would throw an extreme fit (screaming throwing things crying, feeling out of control) Then eventually my parents brought me to a therapist/ councillor whom I refused to talk to for the whole sesssion (I knew I needed help but for some reason could not communicate my feelings), after a few sessions of talking with my parents, she decided that I was jealous of my brother for the attention he gets. My parents believed it until my condition got worse (even after they diverted all their attention to me) and I also knew that it wasn’t true at all because I’ve always hated attention and had an amazing relationship with my brother for 7 years prior to that. I’ve considered OCD but it still doesn’t explain why I only targeted my brother and not anyone else. This lasted for 3 years until it eventually went away, but it irreversivably ruined our relationship. Right now I still get annoyed by his posture sometimes but the anger I felt has became way less intense compared to at that time(I still get fixated on other things though). CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE EXPLAIN THE PSYCHOLOGICAL REASON BEHIND IT?? Thankyou:)