First-year teacher terrified of informal observations
Hi everyone! I’m a first-year teacher, and I just had my IPC meeting today. I’ve been feeling extremely anxious about the possibility of my principal walking into my classroom at any moment for an informal observation.
I’m still learning the curriculum, figuring out classroom routines, and honestly just trying to get the hang of everything. I genuinely want to be the best teacher I can be, but I know I’m not going to be perfect, especially during my first year.
The thought of my principal randomly walking in and observing me makes me physically sick to my stomach. I’ve actually been throwing up from the anxiety because I’m constantly worried about making a mistake, being judged, or potentially losing my job.
I know observations are part of teaching, but I feel like I can never fully relax because I’m always worried someone is going to walk in and catch me doing something wrong.
Has anyone else experienced this during their first year? How did you overcome the fear of informal observations? Am I overthinking this? I would really appreciate advice from teachers who have been through this.