u/No_Beginning_1434

Does anyone have this problem? I keep crashing more often than every 5 minutes. Game is unplayable.

We met on the internet and there was an instant spark between us. We texted, talked and games often. As it’s long distance we didn’t have a chance to meet yet but he said he’s planning it. He’s been the most lovely, respectful and overall great guy. Then suddenly for no reason he didn’t text for a few days and my heart is shattering. He said he had few bad days and was overwhelmed but when I asked for a reason he didn’t tell me. He said he had to step back but reason is unknown. He doesn’t know of any of my diagnoses and I don’t feel like I did anything wrong. I feel like dying/killing myself daily. I was recently diagnosed with bpd and can’t really handle such situations without being self destructive/suicidal. Any advice or input would be appreciated, I can’t live in this hell.

I don’t think it’s about me alone but I’m dying inside so hard. I wish I could just talk to someone and cry together. He’s been the best thing to me that happened for a long while and I I can’t bear losing it. Can someone please talk to me before I do anything stupid?