i went to check my classes on the portal and saw that the status of my online class is closed? i’ve never seen that before, does that mean it’s no longer a class and i have to replace it? or they just closed it so no one else can join? i just need to make sure so i can maintain my full time student status
hi everyone i’m truly being super vulnerable by even doing this but i figured there are people out there with similar experiences and was wondering how i can get through this/stop feeling bad/ mentally survive it in general.
for context, i’m a 20f and still live with my family but our dynamic is pretty interesting whereas we can all “coexist” and not share one word with each other or else there’s gonna be an argument. my mom i feel like cares to a certain extent but it feels like she would choose my dad over me ten times over.
i’m the only one of my siblings who completely cut contact with my dad (even though we share the same walls) and everyone knows that. he is mentally abusive and at times physically and doesn’t care where we are, if he feels like it, he will start an argument. and a loud one at that.
i’m genuinely scared of him to the point where i can’t even be around him without feeling like crying. i feel like no one truly understands it.
everyone is able to tolerate him for the sake of maintaining civility but i genuinely for the life of me cannot. i don’t want to feel bad for feeling this way.
my mom knows how i feel but will make me feel bad for turning down events knowing hes gonna be there . and then i feel bad abt myself and get fomo bc i didnt go because of him.
and im labeled the crazy one for literally staying true to my boundaries. i feel like i wont be a better/stronger person if i were to continue any relationship with him. he has proven time and time he will not change. every conversation turns into a fight where im being constantly reminded that i am the child and just belittling and invalidating me in general. i am not stupid.
i texted this to my mom earlier and i guess i just need advice in general. i really appreciate you taking the time to read this and hope it gets better for you in whatever mental struggles you are facing.