u/No_Couple_7962

Being extremely politically tapped in, is very very stressful for me. Not in terms of what's happening in world but always questioning if I'm believing the right things or supporting the right things. A lot of ultra's say that electoralism is useless in a capitalist society and I see where they're coming from when they say that BUT I 100% understand and believe in hasan's point of view in saying that we should work within the systems that we have BUT It's stressful navigating that I doubt if I'm believing and supporting the right things like every two weeks. If I could I wouldn't even look at politics I don't find this shit interesting like how some of you might. I'm interested in racial politics and the history of colonialism but that's about it all the other stuff is just stressful but at the same time I need to stay tapped in as a good neighbor. it's also stressful to not even be able to find a certain thing funny without my subconscious mind questioning if that was okay to find it funny, I'm a straight man. I got straight man humor that can lean a bit offensive and that's hard to navigate because my leftist mind is constantly questioning if that's ok. How do you guys balance staying tapped in and your mental health?

I've been feeling so lost in my racial identity. I am a Mexican american man; I took a DNA test a while ago that told me that I have 89.8 percent native ancestry and I was like "Wow, I excepted quite a bit but never that much". I ask my father about any indigenous family, he said he didn't know anything then I ask my mom, she told me that my great great grandfather was an Indigenous man that fought in the Mexican revolution, he was one of the many indios that fought alongside Pancho Villa.

Now of course I can't just go off of word of mouth, so I did research to find any documents, my mother didn't know his name, but she knew the name of her grandfather (my great grandfather) and I did some research, I then found the name of my great great grandfather and proof he was indigenous with the birth certificate of his son. Now, I'm stuck I've been struggling to find more info, such as what tribe he belonged too and finding ancestors older than him is a bit sketch because I'm just not as confident on if these ancestors are really related to him. It's so fucking frustrating to be stuck in what feels like in this annoying middle ground.

I love modern Mexican culture, culture created by the "mestizo" majority in Mexico I grew up with that culture and I love it, I like speaking Spanish I love how Mexicans have turned Spanish into their own dialect similar too how black Americans created AAVE but knowing I'm so close to connecting to native ancestors and I simply can't, is so fucking sad. I'm tired of being unable to call myself native or "mestizo" without feel comfortable on it.

I feel so whitewashed especially when I was growing up and people are saying I'm white and in my fucking soul, I knew that was wrong especially as a visibly brown man.

My great great grandfather is more than likely not Mezoamerican but Aridoamerican, just going of the region my family lives in (north Mexico). As well as the fact that Pancho villa gathered fighters from the north, so that would make the most sense.

Anyways fuck the Spanish.

I am a recovering addict. I feel like I've reached a point to where porn is something I can say no too at least for now. I was wondering how I could regain some of the sensitivity I've lost over 9 years of a porn addiction?

Sometimes I find myself attracted to femboy hentai but I really don't think I'm bisexual. I used to think I was when I 15 I was 4 years into my addiction at that point, it feels like my brain is just looking for something new to get a hit, I didn't start watching gay stuff until 4 years of using porn everyday, and once I did it felt wrong (not wrong like homosexuality is wrong, wrong like not for me) but I kept going trying to chase a new high. I never once have been romantically interested in a man, I never once have had a wet dream of a man, I never once have found a man irl attractive and i've never been homophobic. I'm just really stressed trying to figure this out here.