This was my boyfriend who was shot and killed and I was there to witness it. I wonder what he felt and how he feels now…I wonder a lot of things and I’m mostly wondering why I can never feel his presence even though I have his ashes and keep his memory near and alive in anyways I can. Terrence Edwin Mills.
My husband was hit head on by an ambulance responding to a non emergent call in march while riding his E bike. He broke his entire right side of his body pretty much and suffered aSubarachnoid hemorrhage multiple face and skull fractures resulting in diagnosis of TBI.
He has made a miraculous recovery physically he is even walking and doing mostly everything with minimal assistance at this point but he is struggling mentally and it just keeps getting worse and worse. He also has a past of substance abuse and despite my efforts is still smoking stimulants on and off.
He has completely given up on himself most days, he gets angry so angry he has spit in my face several times post incident usually this level of rage comes from me simply asking a question that I’m assuming he is embarrassed to answer…. for an example last week in the parking lot of physical therapy I asked if he was gambling on his phone and that set him into a spiral he broke his phone spit in my face physically assaulted me and hid in the woods for an hour refusing to come out until I called his uncle then he only came out to try and punch me for involving his support system and I used the opportunity to wrestle him back into the vehicle and when we get home he acts like none of it happened to that severity and apologized but it’s a non stop pattern that started bi weekly and now is every other day.
He is still going to cognitive therapy but will not attend physical therapy or see his psychologist anymore. He will have moments where he is very remorseful but a couple hours later I am a piece of shit and he wants nothing to do with me. I am his primary support system but I’m also the only one reminding him that he needs to take time and be patient with his recovery and having to remind him of things he can and can’t do his coordination.
His balance is terrible he is using a walker full time also broke his femur and keeps trying to take off without the walker that is another trigger when I ask him to use it. I am at my whits end and I would be lieing if I said the thought to just take off one night and never come back hasn’t crossed my mind. I need resources or any kind of advice please. I know the man I fell in love with is still there i know he doesn’t mean to be so angry and negative..something has got to change and I don’t know where else to turn at this point.
Also maybe something he can read from someone with a TBI explaining the severity of it from someone in the same situation could help