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Words can't describe how much that cult took from me.

I'm a woman in my twenties with absolutely no relationship experience. Earlier this year, I finally realized I'm a lesbian, and just admitting that to myself felt incredibly liberating. For years, I genuinely believed I was asexual. Looking back now, I can see just how deep my denial was.

The hardest part is feeling like I have to learn everything from scratch. I don't know how to flirt, how to read signals, or how to let someone know I'm interested. It feels like everyone else learned these things years ago, and I'm only just starting.

There's a girl at college that I really like, but she barely seems to notice me. I don't know what to do, and I don't want to force anything.

I guess the healthiest thing I can do right now is keep working on myself, meeting people, and giving myself time. It just hurts sometimes to think about everything that was taken from me.

I just needed to get this off my chest.

Então, contexto: me descobri lésbica este ano, então tenho praticamente zero experiência em interpretar esse tipo de situação. Tenho Asperger e sou INTP sei lá se isso importa kkk.

Conheci uma garota no início do ano na faculdade. Sentamos juntas um dia, conversamos bastante e, na minha percepção, rolou uma certa química. Depois disso, eu a encontrava pelos corredores e ela sempre me cumprimentava de forma muito simpática.

Um tempo depois, percebi que ela me colocou nos Melhores Amigos do Instagram. Achei curioso e acabei colocando ela nos meus também. Ela curtia alguns stories meus, mas eu quase nunca posto fotos, então talvez isso não signifique muita coisa.

Comecei a responder alguns stories dela que eu realmente achava interessantes, tentando puxar conversa. Só que as respostas dela eram meio curtas ou não davam muita continuidade ao assunto. Como não queria insistir, parei de tentar.

A questão é que eu ainda acho ela muito interessante e, recentemente, aconteceu algo que me deixou confusa: nos cruzamos na faculdade e ela nem me cumprimentou, sendo que antes sempre cumprimentava.

Então fiquei me perguntando:

Colocar alguém nos Melhores Amigos costuma significar alguma coisa ou estou superestimando isso?

Vocês interpretariam as respostas evasivas como falta de interesse?

O fato de ela ter parado de me cumprimentar sugere alguma coisa ou pode ser absolutamente nada?

Aceito opiniões sinceras. Talvez eu esteja viajando completamente, mas como sou nova nesse universo, realmente não sei distinguir interesse de simpatia.

I remember that when I was waking up, I was watching The Mentalist, and I always saw many similarities between the Visualize cult and Jehovah's Witnesses.

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It's been a long time since I watched it, so I may not remember everything. But one scene that stuck with me showed Teresa Lisbon saying how they had a strangely frightening smile; nobody could be happy like that all the time.

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Another thing I remember is that they had a specific name for those outside the sect, just like Jehovah's Witnesses call outsiders "worldly."

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There's also an episode that shows a woman who left the sect for studying and questioning, and because of that, she was being persecuted.

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There's much more, but I don't remember it all; I only know that this series helped me realize I was in a cult. Has anyone else watched it and noticed these or other similarities?

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