Does anyone else has this huge fear of being unintelligent?
I know alot of people hate or dislike charlie kirk for what he said and I understand but I once heard charlie kirk in an interview that one of his biggest fears is forgetting something he should already know and as someone who prioritizes intellectualism, debates heavily and has an extreme fear being seen as unintelligent or uninformed that i end up spending near hours per day in the mirror practicing debate ideas and political information so I dont forget anytime soon, that hits harder than it should. I know the whole mirror thing is weird but i fear the idea of being confronted or questioned about my view on a certain political and being unable to back it up. Its probably why i sometimes procrastinate to study politics properly because i absolutely fear forgetting statistics, debate logic and ideas months or even years later.
I feel like this is why i mainly argue logic than numbers and stats. I feel logic, pattern recognition and critical thinking is easier to argue when it comes on to politics because its alot easier to remember your own arguements and logic rather than remembering some stats you read last month. Stats help but normally i'm the one who come up with my own logic and critical thinking so remembering it is alot easier since i mostly come up with the arguement and then simply fact check it after. So what i do is that you wont really see me arguing too much about race. I do it but race heavily rely on statistics etc. I much prefer to argue moral and economic stuff like abortion, immigration, capitalism, communism, gender issues etc.
Is anyone else like this even in the slightest or am I genuinely tripping?