Need a book on communication, friendships, and self sabotage
I’m the type of person who can make friends very easily, i’m loud, im passionate, i listen and i try to help the best i can. But there’s something inside me, maybe the lack of effort i put in? I don’t know what’s wrong with me or maybe it’s my ego, but i am unable to sustain long lasting friendships. I have high standards, so if i feel disrespected or dismissed i cut off the friend immediately or my confrontation is so aggressive in the way i list down their thought processes and how they behaved and try to force them to see the reality of how they are. I don’t know, everyone tells me i’m autistic in the way i behave, and i just want to find a book which can help me sort of realise or understand what i’m going through, how i can stop, and what does a actual friendship look like? How can i maybe get rid of my ego, or forgive more? I’m very afraid of getting hurt and have experienced trauma and betrayal alot, but i have 0 idea on what to look for in a friend aswell. Sorry for rambling, just need a book on this.