I'm stuck in an abusive situation
I'm (17 f) soon to be 18, I've been abused since childhood mainly by a narcissistic immature mother, I'm her first child and I've seen it all from her, i grew up not taken care off just always under pressure, even now that I'm almost an adult I still get beat and degraded daily, I can't remember the last day we haven't fought she genuinely hates me no matter what I do. Dad is mostly out of the picture especially right now but he will be back and he's a strict man for sure.
We recently came to syria without my dad, just 4 younger siblings, the fighting got worse and I'm not allowed to tell him, I can't do anything we are in a small town in syria I'd be doomed if I asked for help. I'm trying to finish high-school and college then think I can make an escape plan with the help of more knowledge, because I truly don't know where or how to go, I'll save up money and get a job when done with college since i have no choice but to study here. With the ice situation I'm pretty sure I shouldn't be going to America right? And I'm not sure if I'm welcomed in Canada either.
I'm preferring western countries because I'm forced to suppress myself in arab countries like syria, for example I'm an agnostic athiest but if people around found out I'd seriously be killed especially since I'm in a religious area, they have killed for less.
All I'm asking for is serious advice I'm not asking for a Knight to come and save me I know it won't happen I just need to know where I could go, or if I even could with the shitty syrian passport.