Tomorrow is my first session. It will either be IM or IV. I am so nervous! I am working hard in therapy to address my issues, and I am so worried that I will mess up the work I have done.
I am grateful I have a dog to walk, a video game to play, and a meeting to go to tonight. I have been struggling with grief and depression and don't know when it will get better. But I will make it through today.
Any kind words would be appreciated.
Just curious. I'm struggling with depression and anxiety and SI. I am wrapping my head around the idea that my childhood family issues of emotional neglect and trauma are more to blame for this than "simple" depression.
Would love to hear anyone's experience good or bad.
So after finally getting the courage to try ketamine and discussing it with my therapist, the clinic said they wanted a referral from my mental health provider. I asked her for one and she said that ketamine is not an evidence based treatment and she would not provide a referral.
I am trying to tell myself that maybe it's for the best, I can try a different med combo (I take effexor and remeron), but I am so tired of living with depression and anxiety. I sometimes feel like I have completely forgotten what ok feels like.
I was pretty anxious about trying ketamine, TBH. My brain tellls me it's better to stay "low" than to feel better and then get worse again.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Disgusting what goes on in this town!
Dorostkar park, 3pm today.