u/Occult-Crow

I need a little help. I’ve discovered my major limiting belief is whether I deserve the big things I really want, whether it’s virtuous or even okay to want them. I’m trying to remind myself that nothing is ever deserved and it’s all a dream, but I’m still plagued by guilt when I try to improve my bad circumstances.

I could really use some advice about changing that, or some particular works I could read to help convince me that there’s nothing wrong with my desires.

I live with a lot of grief and dread, so much so that I’ve forgotten what it feels like to be all right, making manifesting even harder. Could really use tips on that too.

I’ve had some remarkable adumbrations as dreams in my life, but it’s been a while since I’ve had one this clear. I’d love to discuss it from the perspective of Neville’s teachings. I’d also love to hear what you’ve experienced.

To preface, I have no children.

In my dream, I am staying in a house with someone who has possession of my infant son. She takes care of him and I do not, which I dislike. One day she leaves and I can’t find my son. I call her in a panic. She tells me she has hidden him somewhere in the house and I had better find him.

I tear apart the house in a panic looking for him, but I find nothing. I call her back and threaten her with the police, but instead of taking it seriously, she coyly suggests I haven’t looked everywhere, and mocks my attempts.

It was so distressing that it wasn’t until hours after waking that I realized that I too am in the house, and he’s hidden in me. It’s the only place I haven’t looked.

This felt so deeply symbolic and on the nose with what Neville teaches. The internal cause, the god sleeping within us, and an adumbration that the birth-of-the-child sign is coming. I’ve absorbed enough Neville to think I’d surely recognize something like this while I’m experiencing it, but he was right when he said (I forget where) that the vision will make you feel and think the way god wants in order to get the message across.

If any of you have had visions lately, and feel like sharing your latest one, I’d love to hear it and discuss it.