u/Ok-Author4688

Hello everyone,

I'm have no previous singing experience, I'm just someone who finds themselves singing and self-correcting constantly. I've been doing this since high-school(2-3 years ago)

I enjoy observing my voice and I wish I had the option of vocal lessons but unfortunately I don't.

(This certainly isn't a vocal range post, I'm just trying to be as detailed as possible as to whats in my head)

I sing a variety of songs from "I don't wanna be" - Gavin Degraw which has a more twangy sound and Malice Mizer(All Tetsu, Gackt, and Klaha era's) which seems more operatic at times and chesty to me. I also enjoy learning to sing songs from Thirty Seconds to Mars, Bring Me The Horizon which to me feels like I'm merging my high voice with my chest voice all while managing how much sound comes through my noise and making a slight squeaking sounds(which I find sometimes distorts my voice if i hit the right spot/I'm trying learn to access that squeakiness and not automatically sounds nasally, it's hard to distinguish on command to me). Lastly, I attempt Amy Lee songs and Micheal Jackson songs which made me aware that I can just sings the same sounding notes in my chest voice, my high voice, and in the middle of that kinda like a piano.

Anyway, I'm not sure if any of my singing sounds good. This is the extent of which I understand what I'm doing or misunderstand.

Again, I will rush to music teacher as soon as it's possible for me as I have lots of fun singing. My mindset with this post is that whether or not I know what I'm doing I'm compelled to sing everyday. I guess i just like music that much so I might as well learn to what's turn into a hobby properly.

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This might be redundant but I'm trying to be detailed so I would like to add,

My rule of thumb as an untaught person is that my throat should feel perfectly fine after the singing I do. If it hurts, there's something for me to tweak. This ethic leads to me to clarity which is how I discover seperate properties of my voice(chest, high voice, and the voice in between that. The tendency to sound nasally as i go up and how to eliminate that or add it to me chest voice and add twang. The squeakiness I can add to reach higher notes in my chest voice and learn that middle voice and distortion. How I don't have to add breathiness when going high, and I can actually add the bass of my chest to that which helps me sing "The kill"(bury me). I've also learned some exercises to help me not strain(making a doot doot doot sound while singing a scale). Pushing my air out with my stomach which helps vibrato and "vocal weight?".

Anyways, that's everything I understand about my voice. It seems like i can mix different qualities like with a guitar amp (i started learning guitar 2 weeks ago). Feel free to correct me or give me tips. I really want to learn proper fundamentals so I at least have something to go off of.

Thank you!

For the love of God and all things holy.

I FOUND IT,

for so long it felt like there has been an itch that just couldn't be scratched. I've only ever been exposed to classical music through television, all the popular pieces I need not mention; Toccata and Fugue, Vivaldi's four seasons, Bugs Bunnies Bohemian Rhapsody(lol), etc.

It was the "Listening to Music" class I took starting college at 18 to earn an extra grade that exposed me to "Little" Fugue in G minor. There was just so much going on musically and it was so engaging to listen to, I knew baroque music was what I enjoyed listening to.

Either way, I'm 20 now and I want to dive deeper this time. I won't lie, I oddly avoided anything classical for 2 years because although it was so deeply engaging it began to feel like I was trying to walk with no legs. I kind of feel like I just want to be the music but I have no way of doing that.

I've probably gone off the rails with this post lol, but if anyone has any suggestions on how I should go about listening and appreciating classical music as a newbie listener I would greatly appreciate that. I have nothing but desire and time.

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P. S, for the practicing musicians and guitarist. I have an electric guitar from my dad and I've kind of just been learning tabs of songs I really like(which happen to involve recognizable classical influences). How would any of you go about learning classical music through guitar if you had to?

My A.S degree was almost like my own version of a gap year, or getting left back. I was always considered smart by others and I believe them. I'm confident that I'm mentally sharp enough to simply learn and adapt. However, after highschool my lack of actual discipline, emotional regulation, poor study habits/skills, and ADHD showed how far behind I truly was in terms of being able to execute and function.

I've retaken multiple classes, and recently dropped 2 semester consecutively. Luckily because I decided to take summer classes I'm not far behind of my peers at community college at all and I have 1 more year left and I graduate CC.

My GPA went as low as a 1.7, i got it to a 3.0 in 1.5 semesters, I'm shooting for a 3.5 before I graduate and my goal is to simply maintain a 4.0 while I'm completing my AE (B.S). Not only am I recovering my mental health but I'm building the skills I never built pre-college.

I decided that STEM is where I'm most succesful, that's where all my A's and B's are. I did chemistry, physics and retook algebra, the rest are gen ed. I'm taking precalc and calc 1 my sec year as well as other requirements needed to transfer into UB'S AE degree program.

Now here is the point of this post, I have a lot of energy, I'm mad that I lost time and progress after highscool. I feel like I need to make up for that lost progress if I want to be an Aerospace Engineering student.

While I'm completing the last year of my A.S degree what self-study/skills/projects should I focus on in order to bridge the gap where I am today and where I'm expected be as an AE student in one year? I have lots of (admittedly, carved out) free time and mental energy.

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I'm 20 and recently decided to go from a liberal arts associates degree to an Aerospace engineering Bachelors degree.

I'm taking pre-calculus because I never took it in highschool. It's a breeze but Im becoming a bit too obsessed.

On one hand, it drives me to complete my stem courses and study. Since I'm led by a professor it's easier to pace myself and move to new topics.

--On the other hand, when I'm self-studying I hyperanalyze to a point where I stagnate. I've only completed 5 pages in two months of having my own personal precalc book due to inconsistency and psyching myself out.

The good thing about pre-calculus is that I get to review everything I learned in highschool and make sure I fully understand it on a fundamental level. I no longer have to rely on memorization.

But it just takes too long, I psych myself out of it too often and I have so many interest. I fear that I'm just gonna fall behind because I won't move on.

I dont know, maybe I just have to convince myself it's worth it and structure myself a bit better. I think I've accidently gained a passion for math i just don't know how to put it into proper execution.

Maybe it's just a phase but I'm wondering if any one else can relate. I'm a very linear learner and I feel like I can't catch up with myself.

Joining a Dojo requires social interaction.

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Being at the Gym requires being around people.

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Working requires being among others.

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Helping people means I have to be around people.

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I don't want to speak.

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I don't want to have to work with people.

I feel so drained.

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But I have responsibilities.

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My heart wants to help and to grow but I my nervous system is so averted towards others.

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I'm as reclusive as batman but as heartful and loving as Superman.

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I want to be alone, yet I crave connection or at least an outlet for my social energy. I don't want to be sad and I dont want to be trapped in limbo. I've been dealing with it my whole life. It's like all my senses are dialed up, like Superman. But I end up getting to overwhelmed and overstimulated.

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If I didn't have help from my uncle who taught me karate and coached me throughout life I wouldnt have gotten this far.

People actually love me, people are attracted to me because I'm a bright spirit and I seek the truth and light. But I don't know what to do with it. It's so overwhelming.