u/Ok-Comb-8664

Years ago when I was triyng weed I sometimes had panick attack from it. But sometimes it was okay without panic, just enjoyable moments. But I thought its not worth the panick attacts back then. After 3 years, I decided to give it chance again, so I was smoking 2 weeks now and it was perfect, until today.

Today I had the worst panick attack in my life. The moment panick hit me, all I could focus on was my heart beating fast, and weid sensation in my chest. I could hear my heart beating. My whole chest was vibrating/shaking.

I immediatly went to bathroom, I drinked alot of water and I took batth, I thought I need to cold my body. It didnt help, I was panicking naked in my bath. I thought I will die.

My body started shaking, I was losing any power on my muscles, I barely could move with my legs and hands.

I tried to focus on something else, but everytime my mind went to the thought of "im diyng my heart beats like crazy"

I tried to breath slowly and my breath was not fast it was okay, the only problem was the heart and chest focus.

As I was just triyng to chill myself breathing deeply, I felt like im going to fall off, like I was very tired but scared to sleep because I thought im diyng. When I get out of bathroom I was scared to see myself in mirror because I thought my body will look very white and purple lips and it will scared me even more. I was scared I will look like im diyng in mirror and it would freak me even more.

It lasted 2 hours, whole 2 hours I was panicking but the worst was first 1 hour. I think I will never touch any drugs anymore.

Im so pissed at my workplace, they just dont give a fuck about how confusing is the workplace. They just making things work by experience not by common sense. For example, there is some new Tool name in program that you never seen like T8D4. And on that tool that you should use as T8D4 is wrotten T7D4 for example.

And I ask my boss what is this tool I need to use and he also does not know. Only the experienced operators know what tool is it because they know everything by experience and memory. But new guy have no way of figuring out.

And it is like that with everything, there is no system with storage of jaws. You just have 60 jaws randomly at 3 storages. And you dont know where to look for them. No system at all, but again older operator find them fast by experience/memory.

I mean there should be written somewhere where can I found these things, like in warehouse, exact position. But no.

Or you need measuring calibers and they are not at the place where they should be and you again need to find them somehow.

But then if you complain and not figure things by urself you are considered slow and annoying. But the workspace if just mess. And Boss dosnt care.

Pravidelne ked mam volno/vikend tak nejdem v noci spat a len scrollujem internet/pozeram serialy filmy atd. Uz ma to celkom serie lebo to je nezdrave, a ničí ma to. Ale milujem to, je to ako droga. Zamyšlal som sa nad tým prečo to robím a prečo ma to baví.

V noci všetko stíchne a čas sa ako keby zastaví, nikto neotravuje a mam pocit že to je aj jediný čas kedy necitim skoro žiaden stres/uzkost z povinností. Mam pocit že v noci je všetko čo sa týka travenia času doma lepšie a zabavnejšie. A hlavne sa necitim previnilo že nič nerobim a len zabijam čas.

Raz za rok ked sa mi podarí vo volný/nepracovny den vstať ráno tak chytam az nostalgiu že si hovorim wau to som dlho nezazil a zrazu je den strasne dlhy :D

Už takto fungujem asi 4-5 rokov kedy každy volny den nejdem spať v noci ale až rano okolo 5-6:00. Ma niekto podobny problem?