u/OkCoconut8079

My husband just upgraded all my clubs from my 21 year old high school set. My newest being a callaway 5hybrid. I’m still working on hitting it, but I’m getting better. On a par 3 I get up, smack the ball, and think well I hit that way short and stopped watching it. I get to the cart and saw the look on his face. He tells me I just missed rolling in the hole and how it almost went in. I was shocked I thought I was 30 yards short. Definitely got up there and immediately missed my birdie putt, but that’s the closest I’ve ever been to a hole in one.

I (37f) and my fiancée (39m) have been together for going on 4 years with a year break in there for his previous shitty behavior. He’s an excellent narcissist and manipulator, both of which I was aware of before we got back together. I wanted to believe he had changed, bc of the whole love bombing thing. He was so kind and attentive. Turns out he really just needed help moving him and his mom into a new house then I got kept around for a second maid. I’ve always known when he’s up to something. “Oh that’s just Amazon or dominoes notifications” and then he’s texting to respond to those, yeah right I’m not stupid. Anytime I try to bring anything up about how I know he’s cheating or at minimum texting other women, he screams so much that I can’t think straight and I end up apologizing for something I haven’t done. Well, this year we ended up pregnant. Neither of us have any kids and I didn’t think it was possible at this point. One of his exes that he likes to cheat with caught wind of it and began posting on Facebook groups about how he cheats and blah blah blah(at this point she had been stalking my socials for 4 years). I ended up seeing it and messaging her to get info. Turns out he had told his friends we were back together, asked me to move in, told me he loved me, then would fuck her while I wasn’t home. Literally me one day her the next or me in the evening after her in the morning. I’m absolutely disgusted. I have to go get STD tested bc I’m half way through my pregnancy and find this out. I was tested before we got back together and I was good, so I’ll know it’s from him. I hate him. He disgusts me but idk how to leave at this point. I just wish I could walk away. I absolutely can’t stand to even look him in the eyes, but how do I leave when there’s a baby.