u/OkMarionberry2875

I was pondering a question tonight. We know that H’s husband is older than her, he smokes and has been overly fond of the alcohol. So, barring an unfortunate accident, he will likely leave the planet before his wife.

What do you think she will do then? Will she be in a hurry to re-marry or will she find a loyal companion/walker/financial advisor ala Jackie Kennedy. Will she stay single for life? Can she take care of herself by herself? (I don’t think so.)

I predict that she will stay single. I won’t be cruel and list my reasons why. I believe that she will hang onto a couple of the kids so they can parent her. I think that the leeches and agencies who already use her and drain the bank accounts will become even worse and she may end up bankrupt.

As bad as her husband is, I think he keeps the boat afloat and provides the money and attention she loves so much. He also may rein her in when her mental health issues flare up. Without him things will be bad.

That’s just my opinion.

We had an above ground pool installed. I hoped that taking a good dose of Benadryl and a dose of Beta Alanine would prevent problems.

Oh God no it didn’t. It’s been a couple of hours and I’m still itching and prickling and itching on my legs. (it chooses a different spot every time.) I know it will pass that’s the only thing that keeps me from doing something drastic. Like peeling my skin off with a paring knife. (Not really)

I’m going to see an allergist soon and I hope that he or she will take me seriously. I went to one with my sister to check a suspicious mole on her back. I mentioned AP to her. She sneered at me as if I was talking about Bigfoot or telephone psychics.

This is awful. Thank you for listening and understanding.

So imagine you are at an event with your pregnant wife and she begins to feel faint and thirsty. She gets up to leave and you do what? Do you act like a loving husband, get up and go out with her in case she passes out or falls down? Or do you sit on your ass in the event and let the wife go out on her own? Maybe she’ll be okay or maybe an usher will help her up if she faints.

We know which choice Alec made. Or did he? (Da da da daaaaahhhh … suspenseful music) Alec knew that, first she was not pregnant (unless this was the first baby) and he knew that she was actually leaving to do an interview. No sickness. No danger of being sick. Just Entertainment Tonight.

I’m slow and I had not thought about this before.

My thought was “the door is locked from the inside.”

I used to think that there was an outside force, agoraphobia, panic attacks, anxiety, fear. dread. Possibilities of humiliation for fainting, vomiting, having uncontrollable diarrhea in front of people! I would say that I was trapped. I was imprisoned. I didn’t realize for a long time that I was sick. Something had molded my brain and my mind at a young age, to think I was never, ever safe. In my family I was always in danger but they are dead now. They can’t continue to hurt me.

But the whole time the door was locked on my side of the wall. I was the only one who could unlock it and take the first step out. Until I did no one could do it for me, although I was blessed with a sister who walked with me.

It was just a thought I had today that was helpful.

It’s weird. I’m up early because I’m going into Atlanta later on. I started having what I call rolling panic. Why? I’m not hungry. I took some THC powder earlier but that calms me down. I’m not nervous about the day. I’m actually looking forward to the little trip.

I had to laugh because it’s like “oh hi there. Why are you here this morning out of no where?” I did one of my favorite tricks which is going through the alphabet naming breeds of dogs. (Airedale, Beagle, Collie, Doberman, etc) it distracts my mind. Didn’t help.

It goes to show that anxiety can come and go for no reason. The important thing for me is to not give it any power. I know what it is, if not why. I’m not sick. I won’t die. I know it will pass.

Time to get up. I’ll bring you all with me in my heart.

Has anyone gotten the official medical marijuana card for their state?

I’ve been taking the THC gummies that I get on line for a few years. They help me relax and sleep. My pain doctor just told me that I have to get a MM card if I continue to take them. Since I tested positive for THC at my last appt (they do monthly urine tests) I am considered a THC abuser. Ha! They should’ve known me when I was a teenager.

I was surprised as I thought they were legal since I bought them on line.

I feel like it’s a bit of a racket as I have to pay the only doctor $250 to evaluate me and approve me to apply. She said they put chronic pain or CPTSD for everyone. Then I pay for the application fee. Pay a notary fee. Then a fee to type/print the card and mail it. Insurance doesn’t pay any of this.

I just fell asleep an dropped my phone on my face so I’d better stop here. I’m interested in getting the stories from others.

Good night all.