For the last few days when I'm by myself I just want to be sleeping. I don't want to do anything. I'm on 3mg of Vraylar right now, just increased my dose due to newly being upgraded from Bipolar 2 to Bipolar 1 and having a bad manic episode.
I need to snap myself out and can't do it. I barely even cared enough to make this post. Any ideas to help? I have therapy tomorrow.
For a little background my boyfriend and I are both bipolar. I use alcohol as a coping mechanism.
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Recently my boyfriend made out with one of my friends and they almost went further. He turned her down for a blow job.
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We made it back together and I forgave him because we were going through a rough spot. We are just finding our footing again. We had hit a good spot.
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I went manic and drank a whole bunch while manic and hooked up with one of my girl friends, she is in a relationship too, so for some reason in my drunk brain I thought everything would be fine. It was not fine. I even messaged him immediately to tell him what happened.
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He told me he can forgive me, but really should he? Why am I like this? The shame I feel is intense and really hard to handle.
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I need to limit myself with alcohol if this relationship works or not.
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Any advice for dealing with this?