u/Ok_Anxiety_219

Everywhere I go I feel left out. In school, I’m only included when my “friends” can’t find their friends anymore. I get ignored and have to repeat myself multiple times. I am normally alone throughout the day. When I tell my mom this she says it’s my fault and insults me. Anyway I’m at this kinda camp right now and the same thing happens. On the first day I was left out. I got mocked on one of the projects and the team pas did nothing about it. I get ignored and left out from each group of people here (there is 80 people here). Honestly the only thing I like about this month long camp is that I’m away from home. Even after all this my mom still blames me that it’s my fault I can’t form genuine friendships. So nowadays I just tell everyone around me that I’m fine even though I feel annoyed when they ask me questions about my well being. Anyways thanks for reading my rant.

Ever since I was in the third grade, my mother would talk about which university I had to go to. I hated reading books and my mother would tell me what would I do in university if I hated reading books. Honestly, I have never had a passion or dream of what I wanted to be in life. I was forced to do a lot of things by my mother. Right now I’m going to grade 11 IB. I don’t know what I wanna be and I honestly don’t have any interests other than sleeping. When I was starting high school my mother forced me to join clubs that I didn’t like and they never helped. My grades have always been great, I think my average is a 97%. I didn’t think I would make it to enter grade 11 so now I’m unprepared. My mom is forcing me to do biomedical engineering. I might not know what I wanna do with my life but I know that I hate engineering. Both of my parents are engineers and they have always forced me to code and do robotics competitions, which I always hated. To be honest, I hated everything they wanted me to do. What should I do?

I honestly don’t know how to word this nor do I feel like this is real. So my girlfriend got into JJK recently and she was on S2 right now. Last week she saw the Choso vs yuji fight and she found a Choso cosplayer on instagram and she cheated on me with him. So now she is dating him and I have become friends with the cosplayer. Apparently she doesn’t let him take off the cosplay even when they go to sleep. I’m still sad that she left me because we were together for 6 months. I can’t believe she left me for a cosplayer of a fictional character when I have been with her through thick and thin. I wish I could cosplay this Choso guy but I’m too skinny and apparently he is jacked. Anyways I’m signing out.