u/Ok_Meet1796

I've been trying to figure it out for years and for a few months now I've been REALLY trying instead of just avoiding it with a little research and name ideas here and there

I dont really like having boobs but I don't mind them since they are a decent size (if I wear a tight sports bra and oversized shirt they are basically invisible), I'm okay with having female reproductive parts down there and I even think I'd rather have female than the male reproductive part. when I dress feminine I feel like a boy in "girls" clothes and when I dress masculine I feel like a girl(?) in "boys" clothes. I also don't like my name very much because it's pretty feminine, so I usually go by nicknames from my name instead.

I often find myself wishing I was born intersex, specifically female reproductive part but no boobs and a slightly more masculine figure than I have now (and honestly no uterus would be nice too), my face is already pretty androgynous. I usually just tell people I'm close with that I'm "somewhere under the non binary umbrella" which could definitely be true

I have some friends I've been thinking of talking about this to, one of them is non binary and the other is trans. I've talked to one of them about this before multiple times when asked about my pronouns/what I'm comfortable with/etc but I always brush it off with "I'm just somewhere under the nb umbrella" "use whatever terms and pronouns you want" because I'm just so confused and unsure

that friend that I've talked about this with a bit sometimes says things like "you look handsome" or "you'd look good as a guy" to me and like it idk what that could mean about my gender but I like it

any ideas on what could help me figure it out?

(open to any questions)

thanks!

I've been trying to figure it out for years and for a few months now I've been REALLY trying instead of just avoiding it with a little research and name ideas here and there

I dont really like having boobs but I don't mind them since they are a decent size (if I wear a tight sports bra and oversized shirt they are basically invisible), I'm okay with having female reproductive parts down there and I even think I'd rather have female than the male reproductive part. when I dress feminine I feel like a boy in "girls" clothes and when I dress masculine I feel like a girl(?) in "boys" clothes. I also don't like my name very much because it's pretty feminine, so I usually go by nicknames from my name instead.

I often find myself wishing I was born intersex, specifically female reproductive part but no boobs and a slightly more masculine figure than I have now (and honestly no uterus would be nice too), my face is already pretty androgynous. I usually just tell people I'm close with that I'm "somewhere under the non binary umbrella" which could definitely be true

I have some friends I've been thinking of talking about this to, one of them is non binary and the other is trans. I've talked to one of them about this before multiple times when asked about my pronouns/what I'm comfortable with/etc but I always brush it off with "I'm just somewhere under the nb umbrella" "use whatever terms and pronouns you want" because I'm just so confused and unsure

that friend that I've talked about this with a bit sometimes says things like "you look handsome" or "you'd look good as a guy" to me and like it idk what that could mean about my gender but I like it

any ideas on what could help me figure it out?

(open to any questions)