u/Ok_Radish_519

what shorts do yall wear? as a trans man, ive had an extremely hard time finding shorts that i feel good in. the only success ive had is 5 inch mesh basketball shorts, but obviously i can’t wear those all the time or to nicer events. ive seen other people suggest cargo shorts, but they’re almost always long and baggy asf and i prefer my shorts on the shorter side. other fabrics like khaki shorts or chinos always seem to cling to my thighs and accentuate my curves. i like shorter shorts that flare out a little bit but they seem so hard to find.

i hate having ADHD.

i have the worst case of executive dysfunction ive ever seen in anyone. everything is exhausting and i don’t want to do anything and i can’t get myself to do anything. i never learn my lesson no matter how much i suffer because its like my brain is physically incapable of cooperating with anything i want it to do. im overwhelmed by the idea of getting out of bed, doing a singular homework problem, even unzipping my bag and opening my notebook feels like the biggest task ever. it feels like at this point even just existing is exhausting me. thinking is exhausting and i dont want to do it. feeling is exhausting. moving is exhausting. even just thinking about all of this right now is exhausting. thinking about everyrhing in the world all the time is exhausting. thinking about the rest of my life feeling like forever this is exhausting.

i’m just so tired of feeling and thinking all the time about everything and i dont get how anyone else does it. i hate myself and at this point i feel like i cant do anything or function, and i feel useless, and because of how useless i feel, i feel like im never going to not feel that way since i cant get myself to do anything and nothing changes. everything sucks and i’m mentally tired all the time. i feel like every second of my existence is just me trying to avoid everything i have to do and worry about and think about because i cant handle it. i just feel like a lazy person, a failure and a disappointment because i feel hopeless that any of this will ever change. i want to crawl into a ball and never come back out.

rant over. if anyone actually read all this then thanks😭.