i’m the worst (TW: VENT)
i’m 20f. i cant do this anymore. i just want things to go right. i’ve lost a total of 85 lbs but gained around 10 back so rn i’m maintaining 75 lb loss and have been for a year. trying to lose 0.5 lbs a week. i should be able to do that no problem. but my weekly average this week AND last week was around maintaince. i’m glad i probably didn’t gain but i’m still so disappointed i just wish i wasn’t so fucking gluttoness. why can’t i just be normal. why can’t i just have a normal relationship with food. why did i have to be obese as a teenager. i’m the fucking worst anf can’t seem to ever NOT self sabotage.
sorry if i’m not allowed to vent here but the fuckass r/loseit sub has so many rules and idk how reddit works or how to get more “flair” or whatever the fuck so i’m here