u/Ok_Towel9309

So pretty much the title.

I (24f) just broke up with my (26m) husband.

And I feel terrible about it.

The biggest reason is his jealousy.

He was getting more and more jealous over everything. Not just men but friends, work, my interests and even anime characters.

I always tried to adjust and everyone told me that i am less social now. That i got more quiet. And i stopped doing what i love.

I just left and i feel absolutely devastated. I love him so much and I feel so terrible about it.

I really want to call him or go see him but at the same time I know that i had my reasons. And it is killing me.

I know it is hard to judge just from a few sentences. But I really love him and i hope to hear that i made the right decision.

This is my first breakup and i feel absolutely awful and i miss him so much already.

I dont know how i should cope with this or if I should take him back.

We have tried talking so many times but he just stopped caring and there is no way for me to get through to him.

I am 24 (f) and very small in statue. People usually think I am way younger (between 15 and 18) and I think that might be part of the problem.

What really annoys me is, that everyone belittles me like I have no mind of my own. And I get it every day by everyone.

For example at work. I am working my job in finance for 4 years and I got quit the expertise in my tasks. If there is an issue and a coworker asks me they usually don't go with my solution right away and try something else. And every time it doesn't work and in the end we pursue my solution from the beginning.

Same with my family. I can never just make a decision. Every time someone tries to tell me what I should do and knows better. With the most ridiculous stuff. Like buying a certain type of washing machine or what color I will paint my walls. But really anything

I understand that I do look young and that most ppl probably see me as their daughter and try to be extra nice and protective perhaps.

But I am a grown up. I have been living on my own for almost 6 years and I just want to feel respected and heard when I have something to say.

My husband 26 (m) and me 24 (f) are married for a year now. He moved to Germany 6 months ago for me since we started out as long distance.

Our relationship wasn't easy but I always felt a very deep connection to him and vice versa.

But since he lives with me I am starting to loose hope for us. Lately he is extremely distant. He doesn't want any physical contact most of the time. No Sex. No cuddling. No kisses. No verbal affection. And in general just always annoyed by me. I am usually in a good mood and I always been very affectionate. I have toned it down and I am keeping my distance since he is rejecting me and told me when I asked that he just doesn't feel like any of this for no reason. He said that since we are living together there is no need for him to be close to me (rarely he is).

Besides that he is super quickly pissed of or mad. Sometimes about other things, a lot with me. And imo it is not always justified. I feel like as soon as I am not "working" in terms of being grumpy, not in the mood to do what he wants or simply disagreeing on a random topic he gets really mad. He usually walks off and plays Xbox or watches YouTube for HOURS without paying attention to me. And the only way to stop it is whenever I go to him and try to talk things out. I always have to apologize first and he is completely unfair. He gets really loud and calls me names too. And idk I am just loosing hope. I am trying to work on this relationship and I am always trying to make things right for him. But I can't say that I feel the same about him. I don't know ofc what's going on in his mind. I tried talking to him so many times and it never ends good. And I have to say that I can't see a future for us if this is how it's gonna be.

I am taking most of the responsibility and I have breakdowns every 1-2 weeks bc I think that I can't do it no more. Just with everything in life. I am at my limits and I can't seem to make progress or resolve our issues.

I love him very deeply and I don't want to give up. But at the same time I don't know if I am just wasting my time. Please help!