u/Okk235413

I just finished making my college list and I realized im going to be be writing up to 40+ supplementary essays and I am already exhausted. I come from a low income school in a low income area so we get to apply to 20 colleges for free so i have 15 colleges in my list. Are supplementary essays the thing that makes or break your application? I feel like i have a good profile but im just not a good enough writer. Im scared guys I feel like ill get rejected from all the schools I will apply to just because of the supplementary essays 💔 (what even is the point of it when we already have our main college essay ugh)

So I am sexually attracted to girls but ive never actually liked a girl and the thought of being with a girl doesn’t make me feel anything meanwhile I am not sexually attracted to guys at all like to the point i feel repulsed by their ykw (im sorry if this sounds mean) but ive always seen myself being with a guy and im constantly always having crushes on guys. My friends always ask me what I am and I always say I don’t know because I genuinely don’t know. Is this being bisexual? have I just not found the right girl yet? is this maybe internalized homophobia because i grew up in a christian household? I really don’t know because ive always been this way and I don’t know how to explain it to others without sounding weird and I know im not straight either because a straight girl would not feel this way about other girls.