u/Old_Power_6055

I find this genre of theists/religious subscribers to be the worst. Superficially it seems they are cognisant enough to know better than the nonsense they defend, however they engage in deeply dishonest and pseudo-intellectual rhetorics in defense of their faecal 'beliefs'. They misconstrue science and history, and falsely attribute to their religion things that don't belong to it. It's worse when they include 'philosophical' nonsense in their squabbling. Their statements aren't of better value than that of your average believer yet I find theirs to be rather more embarrassing, appalling and infuriating. These people to me are the stereotypical pigeons who shit on chessboards and claim victory.

When I see others who are clearly socially adequate, I despise and resent them so much. People just being themselves and doing most social stuff with ease.

Either in public or online, when I see them communicating/connecting with their other cool acquaintances I become filled with negative emotions and don't want to have anything to do with them.

This is marked for those people who are more socially fluid than average and get positive attention from others all the time. I often even mute them on social media.

It even extends beyond social behaviour and includes when people have their shit together and are competent in various aspects of life that I'm not. Cos having debilitating anxiety and avoidance feeds into other aspects of your life.

Why do I get to be the one that stands out as a defective nervous wreck who isn't taken seriously everywhere I find myself? A tragic social aberrant who is overwhelmed by the gravity of his reality.

It's one of the things I don't like about myself cos I don't want to hate people yet I do so deeply. Anyone else like this?

Occasionally on twitter I see people reference the term 'reddit atheism'. I see random people use it but most users of the term seem to be religious apologists, or people who don't like atheists for some reason. Can someone explain the reason for the label cos I don't know what's weird or special about this sub. Just people talking about serious problems that affect our lives.