Struggling with faith
I have a very unstable relationship with Islam, I will feel super connected and then almost stop believing in between, I have felt a very strong relationship with God while I was going through a depressive episode (it was a very sad time for me idk if depression would be the right word though) and it was such a high I miss that connection and during that time I very deeply believed God would help me in a few situations I was constantly begging for however things have only gone downhill from there and my connection with Allah has deteriorated. I blame him for a lot of things knowing I shouldn't but I just can't help it knowing he has all the power in the world and still isn't helping me (or maybe he is and I just don't have the wisdom to see that rn?) Idk but I genuinely do not feel guilty for not praying anymore my parents keep asking me to get regular with my prayers but I just don't feel that connection anymore and I don't even feel guilty about it idk what to do man