Hello. I am a Civil Engg grad prepping for Govt Exams. I am also prepping for GATE too. Now, I just wanna know whether, GATE CE paper is eligible for certain programmes for PhD. As, I am also trying to look forward into Management/Corporate side as a backup plan. How is life after that.
I see
where it asks only a valid GATE Score (Not specific paper unlike for Economics PhD).
How is career in these fields. Will there be any placements in these fields if I do PhD. Please enlighten me.
I have
10 th - 98%
12th - 96.9 %
B.Tech- 85.4%
M. Tech - 80.9 %
How are my academics??
I dont know what I am doing with my life. I had one of the most brutal breakups with a Borderline Personality Ex. Its been an year, but the pain, low self esteem, unemployment is killing me. Pain of disappointing parents. Lies I told them. Things I hid from them. I dont know what I am doing. I am scared of even giving exams due to fear of failure. I dont know. I never thought I will be writing this contemplating these thoughts, but here I am.
My superiority complex and inferiority complex both sabotaged my career since +1 +2. Since, then, has always been a insecure guy. I dont know. Parents are still supportive to me, to give govt exam preparation. But, fear of failure, porn addiction, procrastination is holding me back like anything. I just am living a passive life without any vision for future. I just dont know. I dont know how I will be, if I fail govt exams too. I just dont know. But, deep down, I feel I dont wanna give up.