u/Opening-Note-825

like the human in me feels very bad that I hate my parents so much

but the kid in me remains angry and unforgiving.

and its all sooo weird mixed up feelings in me

I can't explain

my father loves his addiction more than he would ever love me

always neglected from his side

always guilt tripping me if I ever confront him

had to be a trauma dump for my mother and my father ever since I was a kid, so much I forgot that I was supposed to be a kid too

they both guilt tripped me into making me believe

that they are "victim" Somehow

after doings things they wanted to do and neglecting me

and now they ruined my childhood so much

Saw things so cruel because of them

that I'm scared of nostalgia

I'm happy that I'm kind of a adult now

and have control

I wish I never was a kid

I feel so ugly and underconfident sometimes

that I feel like I'm ruining people's day by going outside

like hi I'm sorry you have to see me today .

I feel naked in public (metaphorically ofcs)

I don't feel like a normal human being

just some weirdo roaming around always feeling like I don't belong wherever I am

22inch