Nightmare on Lake Wa
He blames for his dog death and never speaking to me and want me to forget him and the dog!
I still get nightmares till this day. It was an unusual day, I’m still mourning and grieving for my mom who recently passed away in mid May. Two month after his dog dies, under my watch and care. His dogs or normally unleashed and collared less. The day before we was just walking along alki beach with no leash or collar and girls (frenchie and a jack Russell) were well behaved with me watching the sunset and running around on the sidewalk. The next following day is when this nightmare happen. I just got done getting my certification for self development and career success for my future. So I had took some documents to sign forms in the car. I noticed he started being a little tab mean to the jack Russell. And I called her name thinking something was wrong and she was on my shoulder. Wanting me to comfort her. As if she’s scared and has anxiety or so. And when I let her out the car she ran in the big field of grass and I’m always hollering her name because of the cars driving and I didn’t want her accidentally running to the middle of the street. So I’m not really at the right stat of mind because he got out the car and the dogs were already running away from him. And he had some bad energy like there was something wrong like I couldn’t get through him for him to really speak instead giving me short word responses out of his mouth so I assumed he wanted to to take the dogs for a walk. Remind you there collarless and unleash. But when the two dogs are with him there well behaved. So I carried the jack Russell in my arm to the other side while crossing looking both ways. At lake wa. And the area I was at had a sign saying no driving! Cause there are shutting that road off to make it a pedestrian street instead of cars passing through very fastly and not going to speed limit at 25! So yes this area is very busy but I’m aware of it. Because the day before we was at a beach which is famous for tourists and car rides for the scenery. So I’m crossing no cars were coming both ways so I had the frenchie walk with me to the other side while holding the jack Russell. So I let her down cause she wanted to be down. I should’ve held in to her longer. So when she got out down she seem frightened and scared so I called her name and had both my hands out and she was shaking having anxiety ran off to the middle of the street and the guy driving can see her still chooses to speed up and run her over right before my eyes and legs and hand can run to her. It was too late, she coughed out blood and died right before our eyes got watery and shaken from the accident with disbelief. Now it’s my fault as a worthless human to witness this tragedy. while I’m in shocked and scared and hurt and the person that ran her over realizing two minutes after her had hit the dog and killed her. If I can rewind it back I wished I was the one who get hit instead of the dog. The person didn’t say sorry or anything and drove off like nothing had happen and now me and frenchie is both traumatized with this incident. And scared not knowing what going to happen next. I told him sorry in tears crying and hurt torn into pieces. he ignored me. Like you can tell hates me anger mad all the above like he wanted to yell at me or wanted to hurt me but you can tell he actually holding back and not say a word to me beside “put the dog down don’t touch her” i was shocked when he didn’t get violent with me or screaming at me. Instead I got quiet and listen to him knowing I’m scared and not sure what’s going to happen next. He gives me the silent treatment. He got in the car drove off for a min left me and frenchie on the sidewalk and then drove back let us two in and drove me to the nearest bus stop and that was the last time we spoke and seen each other. So I had got in the bus back home. And I once I got him I sent him an apology through messages even thought I verbally told him as I communicated sitting next to him in the car ride to the bus stop that I was sorry! He couldn’t even look at me nothing just hate and anger written all over his face when I speak to him from his expression. When I arrived home I had put a lit candle out and did a prayer for the dog and told Heavenly Father everything that just happen. And also cried off to my dad. I’m hurt torn into pieces wishing this nightmare was me instead of the dog! I miss her the dog I couldn’t sleep at all four a whole week going on the this third week missing her every day dreaming of her. Second day of her passing my eyes are swollen fueling with guilt and pain suffering from the trauma of the incident. I miss her she was the sweetest little dog. Remembering her memories with me that she share her genuine spirit with us. All the catches I have thrown her the ball and her always returning it if not a different ball she found. Her always licking me and wanting to be on my lap and get excited when I say her name! She was sweet active always very sensitive to smells and enjoying car rides and always being alert! I will always have you memories with me in my heart. Oh yeah about the guy. Week 3 going on week 4 won’t speak to me won’t answer my calls nor text. Now I have to move on knowing this is killing me inside. My mother passed away in May that was my biggest heartbreak of a lifetime but yet I put my feelings to side fighting through smile everyday but I’m never going to see my again! But this accident with the dog was literally an accident. I’m still get nightmares of her death! I know he’s never going to speak to again and hate me every ounce he hear my name! He blames me even though he tells me her forgave me his actions shows he never knew me like I never exist! I feel so horrible worthless and shameful and inconsiderate