u/OrdinaryTwin_2000

Before anyone asks NO i do NOT hate him, NO i do not wish harm on him before anyone runs to the comments with those. This is not a post to bash him.

He’s so gorgeous and i hate that so much. Theres times i can’t stop staring at him in an admirable way and i clearly see what girls see in him. He’s by far the best looking person ive ever seen and yes, as a twin this sounds fucking insane to say but i wish I looked like him. I don’t. (Yes, we’re identical twins not fraternal) I’m bottom scraps of the barrel hideous compared to him due to my deformities on both my face and body. My brother looks as if he’s a movie star and i look like a failed lab experiment. I look like a more fucked up version of Thomas Crooks the guy who attempted to kill Donald Trump in 2024 and my brother looks eerily similar to someone like Roger Taylor in the early days of Queen. It makes me wonder and even hate so much what the fuck even happened in the Gene pool. I had the most fucked up luck in the history of, well, probably ever.

Especially when your twin brother is really attractive and has girls openly crushing on him and wanting to date him. Girls have even sometimes fought over him and he has had countless over countless of girlfriends over the years, and all have been very pretty girls too. Some of them i have no idea how he even managed to pull but then i have to remember how attractive and hot he is. He even gets nudes sent to him all the time and i know he has had sex at least twice and at least 2 blowjobs from 2 different girls. I really know sex isn’t everything but damn it really does get me jealous sometimes and get me wondering sometimes you know? Going back to the girls fighting over him part it really gets you wondering and thinking my brother has a twin (me) you’d really think girls wouldn’t have to fight over him because they’d have me as a second and convenient choice, but ohhh man is that so far from both reality and the truth. Girls always have and still look at me and become instantly genuinely disgusted. The looks and facial expressions on their faces literally say it all. They look at me and look as if they’ve stepped in dog shit or smelled a ripe fart. (I take showers almost daily and do wear deodorant so no taking showers does not help being ugly, "jUsT tAkE a ShOwEr bRo!")

It’s crazy because i have been in situations where i have overheard my brother talking/flirting to girls and after a while he brings up in the conversation that he has a twin and the girls get so excited saying "oh my gosh let us see him!” And "he probably looks just like you!/he’s probably just as cute as you are!” And my brother says stuff like “actually, he’s here with me let me go get him" and he’ll come to me and say how the girls he’s talking to want to see me and that gets me scared and nervous because i have a feeling I know how it’s gonna end up like it has before. I’ll walk in the room or area where the girls are my brother is talking to and he’ll introduce me, everyone immediately stops smiling when seeing me and looks at me with either genuine disgust or awkward expressions, and the girls will either say "oh” in let down tones or "i didn’t expect him to look like that” "he doesn’t really look like you that much” “are you sure you guys are identical?” (Yes me and my brother are 100% positively absolutely positive and sure we’re identical twins, it’s my facial deformities that make me look different from him) and the girls will go back to immediately talking to and flirting with my brother and act as if i was never introduced and ignore me, even if i try and talk or add something to the conversation im completely ignored and or given glares that pretty much tell me I’m not wanted in the room/area and that i’ve overstayed my welcome.

Someone can go from a 10 to a 5 or 4 extremely quickly by the way their voice sounds, if that person weren’t already ugly. In my situation on top of being ugly, my voice goes right along with which is the straw that breaks the camel’s back. My voice is absolutely horrendous, it’s a weird combination of being both high pitched and low pitched at the same time, i have a very bad stutter and have a very strong southern accent and i usually talk too fast in the rare times I do talk according to people. My voice has been made fun of in the past also with people mocking the way it sounds by copying what i either say or attempt to say if my stutter doesn’t destroy it. I also so believe if a person is considered attractive by first glance/first sight, they can very easily become instantly unattractive/ugly once they speak if their voice is ugly. It’s like a "yeah, nevermind" moment for the person that initially thinks that other person is attractive on first sight. Does anyone else here have an ugly voice too that unfortunately matches their ugly face?

My own twin brother was one of the people in the conversation. Idk if he was a agreeing with it or in on it but the conversation was definitely about me, because as i was walking up on them one of them were saying "well, he’s not UGLY but…eh.. well…" and i interrupted saying "what?" And all of their eyes literally grew huge and my brother turned around so fast with the most shocked expression on his face and it got quiet SO fast… yeah idk what exactly they were topic was about me but they said "ugly" so they were pretty much pointing it out and admitting it. My own twin coming at me sideways like that lol. It doesn’t surprise me as he at the most random times tells me how "good looking" he thinks i am with the fakest put on when we’re not even on the topic of looks and gets extremely mad at me when i very rarely bring it up that im the ugly one out of the two of us when he tells me he "feels" ugly 🙄 oh well it’s normal and you really can’t stop people from talking about you especially behind your back when you’re ugly, it’s natural

At Bible school at my church at group of little girls have become attached to me and have already given me a nickname "JJ" and can’t stop hugging me and or playfully hitting me and teasing me. A few of them even took the hat of my head i was wearing and all wanted to take turns wearing it, They’re all about 8-10 years old and it’s honestly the purest and cutest thing ever. I mean they did take in inflated balloon and drew my face on it and tried to add my face deformations damn let me tell you kids can be brutal lol. But still it beats 100% being called ugly and being treated as such and even nicknamed "the ugly twin” or "the ugly one” out of myself and my brother by miles. Point of this post is something positive is happening to me instead of the usual bullying, shunning, mistreatment and even threats being made towards me because of my appearance. Hopefully some positive things can happen to you guys here too and can get a break from people calling you ugly and mistreatment.

And nope just as i suspected it didn’t work lol. I went into public in the store and walked around and nope not a single girl noticed, turned their heads or stopped me and complemented me and told me how much they wanted me to fuck them. I was completely ignored like i wasn’t even there. Maybe a shower will work next?

Hobby Lobby, TJ Maxx and Five Below opened in my area today and me and my brother went to check them out and oh boy did i immediately feel like i didn’t belong. Let me tell you they were FULL of insanely attractive people that looked model and Hollywood tier every corner you turned. It was insane how good looking and hot everyone was and most of them looked at me with "WTF" and grossed out facial expressions and looked as if they couldn’t get away from me soon enough and that’s another dead giveaway right there. I know those are a few places i won’t be going back to

My brother told me she thinks I’m one of those people that are so hot they are scary to be around or to even talk to, and honestly don’t know how to feel or think about this because 1, she’s never seen me yet and 2, my face is extremely deformed and crushed in it’s really not even possible for someone to find me attractive really. If anyone wants to know what i truly look like i look eerily similar to the Donald Trump shooter Thomas Crooks. There’s pics of him everywhere on google just google him. I look almost more identical to him than I do my twin brother except my face is more deformed and more crushed and crooked. I don’t know why she’d apparently think I’m one of the hottest people she’s ever seen when she’s never seen me in person yet nor seen any pictures of me because there’s literally no pictures of me anywhere nor does my brother have any pictures of me on his phone so i know for a fact he hasn’t shown her any pics of me cause there literally isn’t any, and she’s also with my brother who is extremely model tier/hollywood tier attractive so idek why she’d think that or what to think myself right now.

I know it’s most likely not going to amount to much or even help at all, because my face is crushed in on one side but I’m going to give it a shot regardless. Lately my teeth haven’t been in the best shape, they have had a deep yellow color and my front left tooth is badly chipped
and has been like that for about two years now. But for the past 2 weeks ive been using deep stain removal tooth paste that’s surprisingly been working, I’ve noticed my teeth have a more whiter shine than they’ve had over the past 5 months or so and I’ve made a dentist appointment to have my chipped tooth filled in which the dentist says they can actually fix, so hopefully that’s a plus right there. I got my haircut about a week ago and it’s actually a surprisingly decent haircut that makes me look not as bad as i did before so hopefully that adds to something. Also i shaved my face and my face is now clean shaven and i do say yet again i dont look AS bad as i have been looking lately, i still indeed look pretty bad but at least it’s somewhat of an improvement.

Also this summer I’m making appointments at a Spa for skin care to make my face skin smoother and making tan appointments to tan my skin so hopefully this all adds to something.
But yet again as long as i have that unfixable facial deformity that does indeed count me as ugly, so most of this stuff is most likely not going to help or improve anything and i will probably still be seen as ugly and unattractive like i have been since i was a preteen, but hey as i said at the beginning of the post its at least worth giving it a shot. I’m just really tired of being seen and known as the ugly twin/the ugly one out of myself and my brother and people looking at me in disgust as if they’ve stepped in dog poop or something, or even flat out laughing at my appearance and straight up calling me ugly in public unprovoked when just walking past them. Hopefully at least some of what I’m attempting to do will fix my appearance at least a little and make me at least average. I’ll keep you guys updated as the months go on.

Yes it’s RandomTwin_21 here, i used to be in this sub for a few years until my account got banned last year for reasons in another sub i didn’t know about. Hopefully im here to stay for good because I’ve really missed being in the sub and away from it for over a year and being able to vent about my experiences. Anyways, yesterday my brother came into my room yesterday complaining to me he’s a "huge butterface" and that he sent a text to his gf that he’s a “huge butterface” and "feels so chopped", and that his gf (who extremely pretty and popular btw) replied to him “me too, im so ugly it’s over”. My brother told me that really annoyed him because she was apparently "supposed to tell him how hot he actually is” and that now he feels so insecure about his looks.

This REALLY made me mad because he’s literally model tier when it comes to looks and on the attractiveness scale, there’s times he’s so good looking it’s unreal and over the past year and last couple of months he has had at least 3 different very pretty and popular girlfriends and has had sex with one of them numerous times. Also still has different girls openly crushing on him hard and wanting to be his gf’s so he’s SO FREAKING FAR from being a butterface which he claims so hard he is. Yet if anyone here can remember i have facial deformities that make me extremely ugly and unattractive to where strangers call me ugly unprovoked in public and laugh at my appearance, and am even nicknamed the ugly one/the ugly twin out of myself and my brother, to people we know still to this day calling me ugly and laughing when I’m literally just doing nothing. But back to what my brother told me this proves even further attractive people LOVE to compliment fish just to prove they are attractive even though they know from the start they are. It’s their favorite game. Yet still, my brother gets so mad at me when i rarely tell him im the ugly one out of the two of us and tells me "nobody is calling you ugly" or “nobody thinks you’re ugly” yadda bladda bladda classical attractive person reaction.