Should I divorce or give another chance ?
Heyy strangers🩷 First time doing a Reddit post I am so desperate I need help. Me and my husband are 4.5 years married (i am 26 he is 27)I moved to his country after 3 months being together and we got married lived w his parents for couple months was okay I did heard like small stuff like the mil mentioning his ex couple time just bcus of some story and she was present or them coming with us in our honeymoon coming w us choosing apartments stuff like that coming to clean my apartment while I was not there or we both traveled I did mention that was not okay and my husband usually did the talk bcus I really loved them and respected them and didn’t wanted conflict I was alone w his dad in his home country helping his elderly mom taking care of her for 2 weeks also while she was in Germany I will do the same still i really loved his family and did it w pleasure even when my husband will say that I do too much I didn’t mind it.We didn’t did wedding or celebration our parents didn’t meet his parents but my husband did came to my home county multiple times and loved it.We did had twin flame love and I still have love him he was my first for everything he was also good husband took care loved me so did I but there is also the dark side ☹️he will call me w@ore while we argue and other names the last argument was that I came from work he was at his parents house for 3hr when he came he was trying to kinda get mad for me not wanting to go to his parents house the next following days for breakfast where I I told him ahh I wanted to shop stuff for(I went much more to their house and never said no in all these years )me for work started also new job is hard moving to a new country had couple jobs learned the language pretty good not perfect but he was telling my also I complain too much about my new work he can’t do the moving to another city it was not smart (after searching together for new app) that was actually not in the plan anymore and so the wedding next year we plan the vacation we plan also he can’t do it bcus of financial issue mind u he was searching hotels and stuff I asked him what change in this short time he started to cry I got also mad came from work from stress to another one (he will mention don’t want to fit in I always complain we live in a German village where everything is limited plus his job is in another city)started to yell at him he went outside I went after him while I was yelling (i shouldn’t have I regret it I couldn’t handle it anymore it was all in one that day)pls just lets go home is not okay what you do he called his mom and say come my wife is yelling on the streets she came end up in their apartment (Is just one street away) tried to talk called my parents so I don’t feel alone had also bruises from my husband he didn’t hit me but holded my hands (this happened couple days before ) while I was yelling also kinda put his teeth on my head he didn’t bite it or anything it it was weird nobody knew about it just me i am alone there already having a bad job and now ending in his parents apartment i did yelled and slammed the balcony door bcus my husband told me i yell like his ex his dad got so mad and yelled at me told me to f@ck muself and get out of the appartment i was schoked started crying my hb did came and pushed him away he was also panicking wenr outside to talk w his dad he complained about having a argument w his mom before and he told his mom to take me and bring us to our apartment i looked at my hb and he was like is okay we will both go came home had panic atack he did talked w my parents puttinf the blame on me telling what i expect when i yell in his parents apartment nexr day went to work heartbroken crying but I was sure I will not leave him he is really pure and nice and I know he really loves me but when I came it was like 21:00 called my mom talked very quiet to her bcus he was laying in the other room door closed sleeping i know he was wake I did dinner for us he stood up and calls me bad names again I begged him to sit and talk w me he left and went to his parents apartment.I left to my family directly who lives 2hr from me almost and saw them 2 years ago no contact w my hb nothing at all came back to my home country after 2 weeks he texted me saying that’s 2 weeks passed he told my mom to get me a ticket or they will get me he wants me to come in my parents home and just relax and think about life i was again the one to blame no accountability not sorry nothing.I do love him and want to go back but I already gave many chances idk if it’s worth it .He said he will go to turkey to his grandma w his family I am okay with it just for couple days anyway but when it was the hardest for me sleeping at a family I am not even close he didn’t even call he is not replying to my younger sister who just asked how are things bcus he is mad at her for something that she said which she didn’t said anything he said he has a screenshot but never found him his mom did text my mom on the day it all happened awful words saying my parents didn’t raised me good bla bla even tho when I said her son is pretty abussive and calling me names they just put it under the rug I do reply to his family when they react to my story he mom did texted after I came to my country repllies directly after he texted me and she left me on read me and my hb we talked very little bit not any closure he says u will come septmeber and try again give another chance he acts like is me who needs to beg for a chance…did cussed me out check my insta dm w my friends bothered that i post selfies blocking unblocking me idk anymore now he also says he needs time he is confused by me he needs to rethink he act cold nothing like missing me or smtng even tho he told me he wants me to come back september…help i am lost